Tarot for the Soul ~ week of August 14-20, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.



~ WEEK OF AUGUST 14-20, 2017 ~


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This week, embrace the wisdom of flowers.photo_water Queen

In the Receptivity Card (Queen of Water), notice how a lotus encircles the woman’s head. Her head is completely enveloped in the flower. She is one with the flower, she functions as a flower: energy is flowing into her (from the stars), and energy is flowing out of her (into the Earth), as one seamless flowing motion. Everything is in tune. Everything is smooth and perfect.

If you gaze at this card long enough, you begin to get a sense that this woman is functioning no longer from a place of mind, no longer from a place of logic and rational analysis, but, rather, from a place of feeling and intuition. She has evolved. She has combined her incredible powers of Human Being with the wisdom of the plant world, the wisdom of the flowers.

This week, your gift is the wisdom of the flowers: simplicity, instinct, intuition—a deep sense of connection with the Universe. Beauty.

In some ways, we could say that flowers and plants are more in tune with the Universe than we human beings are—because they don’t cloud their existence with worries. They simply gather the sun, drink the nutrients from the soil, breathe, and be. They are effortless. They know they will be provided for, and so their undivided energy is devoted to simply being. They are.

We love looking at plants and being out in Nature because they remind us that life really is simple.

This week, you will be able to access the flows of intuition more easily. You will be more receptive to the ease and bliss of the Universal forces flowing through you. Open your ears—it will be easy. Open your heart—it will be easy. Open your mind—it will be easy.

This week, you are graced with an enhanced sense of receptivity. You will know as the flowers know, be as the flowers be. This is your gift this week.

Recommendation: Each morning this week, first thing when you wake up, sit quietly with your spine straight, palms facing up, and say aloud: “I am open and receptive to the wisdom of the Universe. I am open. I am receptive. I am a flower, being fed by the stars.”


This week, it’s important to recognize that both cards are water cards.

In Tarot, water cards symbolize emotions and intuition. The water element is the aspect of Divine Feminine that is heart-based and feelings-based. photo_water 7

In the Projections Card (7 of Water), we see a man and a woman looking at each other. Yet they are not really truly looking: what they are seeing, instead, is an illusion. They see false, distorted images.


When we gaze at the other, the other becomes our mirror. The Universe is made of many beings so that we have many opportunities to learn and explore what is within. We have these amazing (and sometimes crazy!) relationships with others—seemingly outside our own bodies—in order to feel more deeply what is within.

It’s a paradox.

In the ultimate view of the Universe, no one and nothing is separate. We are all interconnected strands of one energy. And, yet, as we manifest into bodies, we seem to be separate. That is the whole game of it! The game is to have these things called relationships: to interact with others so that we may reveal hidden truths within ourselves.

We want to connect so we can feel connected. We want to relate so we can feel relatable.

The spiritual journey is finding balance between the outward adventures (relationships) and the inward adventures, such as meditation, Reiki, yoga, and other healing arts, where we learn to go within our own heartspace to learn what our own energy feels like, to learn what our own auric field feels like. We feel the muscles in our legs and we feel the way it feels to breathe using the lungs inside our own particular chest. We learn what it is to be “me.”

As we devote more and more time to inner exploration, to meditation of various kinds, we can engage more wholly and honestly in relationship with others. This week, remember this delicate balance. That is your challenge. Are you spending enough time alone? Are you noticing and honoring your feelings? Are you giving yourself enough time in your day for quiet reflection? Are you meditating? Are you walking outside in Nature? Are you caring for your physical body—giving yourself the proper nutrition, sleep, and exercise? Are you feeding yourself positive, uplifting affirmations? Are you hugging yourself and touching your own body with love?

This week, you are invited to see the opportunity to bring more emotional balance into your life. Through more balance between inner exploration and outer relationships, you reduce the tendency to mentally project your own desires, expectations, and judgments upon others. You learn to, instead, intuitively feel and sense people and situations as they truly are. You learn to feel with an open heart.


Thanks for joining me, friends. If you have a comment about this week’s reading, I’d love to hear from you. And if you haven’t already, please follow this blog to receive Tarot for the Soul delivered straight to your inbox!

I hope you have a wonderful week!

May you be blessed.
May you be abundant.
May you shine your radiant light.
May the love that you feel
be all that you embrace and heal.


Sending all my love,

Anya Light ♥

A moment of light and bliss with my darling soulmate Rowan, after my recent talk at the Center for Conscious Living




Touch is such an important element in healing and also in our daily life. But how do we touch?

One of the most important elements to touch in the right way is our mind, because if our mind is not in the right space, touch can become very different, even hurtful.

Let’s look first at touching ourselves because if we do not know how to touch ourselves, then how can we touch others in the right way?

In the context of healing, we need to touch ourselves with the intent that we receive whatever we need. There is no need to have a very specific, boxed in intent, like “this or that needs to be healed”; in truth we do not really know what we need. We might think we do, but if we look honestly at ourselves we do not really know. So by setting a very open intent, our mind and energy also become more open and thus allow a more free flowing energy. For example, say you have a pain in your knee. If you just touch your knee with the intent that your knee gets healed, you are setting a limited intent. And thus your touch is limiting, because maybe the pain in your knee comes from your sciatic nerve. And that issue might come from a tightness in your kidneys due to pent up anger. If we set a more open intent when we touch our knee, the healing can take place on a much deeper level and our touch becomes something very different.

In our daily life we often are told from our parents or from society not to touch ourselves; thus we have created an obstacle through which our mind and energy don’t flow. Touching our own body can be very healing and freeing. But again, we need to touch it with the right state of mind. What is this state of mind? This is the state of mind of no anger and worry or fear, a state of mind in which we are grateful for how our body looks and feels no matter what. And we have to couple our touch with our innate love and compassion. Therefore, if our touch is without anger, worry and fear, and is infused with gratefulness and compassion, then we have the right touch. By being mindful when we are touching ourselves, which means our mind is not being distracted by past, present and future issues, we are therefore completely focused and open at the same time when we touch. This kind of touch, due to being completely free, brings a deep kind of healing, peace and even inner joy and bliss.

Thus, through knowing and learning how to touch ourselves with the right state of mind, we learn how to touch others when we perform a hands-on/off healing session, or just in our daily life.

When we touch someone during a hands-on/off session, we need to touch without anger, worry and fear and in a state of mind of gratitude and compassion. Often people touch with the intent of a specific outcome, that the person might be healed, feels something, has no more pain, or is happy. But in reality, this mindset comes from worry and fear; we may worry and fear that the client is not healed, does not feel anything, or still has pain and is not happy. If our mind is completely free of any specific intent, it therefore is completely open. In this place of openness, we can touch the person in a spacious state of mind. This means that the space is so open that the energy can flow freely through both practitioner and client without any obstacles. This in turn creates a deep state of mind for healing to take place and even for inner joy and bliss to occur.

When we first start to experience this kind of deeper touch it might start to feel very intimate. So to be able to do this kind of touching we need to stay centred and grounded. This kind of intimacy has nothing to do with sex; rather it is a remembering that the person who is touching is also being touched at the same time! Thus during this kind of touching a mutual state of healing will take place.

This kind of touching is also very important if we want to keep our relationship healthy with our partner. Often we may touch our partner, when we make love for example, in a distracted state of mind. Our mind is not focused and open. It is thinking about the past, present and future. But when our mind lets go of the past, present, and future, our touch becomes something very different. Now it is devoid of anger, worry, and fear; it is infused with gratitude and compassion. This kind of love making can trigger deep forms of inner joy and bliss which will heal many wounds that are often created in relationships. When we touch each other like this during our love making, then love making becomes magical and healing. Something very deep and intimate takes place between two people, an opening, a spiritual experience, a sense of peace and inner happiness.

Thus to really touch we need to stay very mindful and focused, not distracted by past, present and future. To help us to embody this state of mind so that we can touch in the right way, we can practice things such as yoga, meditation practices, the system of Reiki, Tai Chi, Buddhism…all of these help us to focus and open our mind. And by having an open spacious mindset our energy starts to flow freely through our whole being, which will result in a touch full of love, compassion and inner bliss and joy.


“Touch” was originally published on International House of Reiki blog.



Frans Stiene has been a major influence on global research into the system of Reiki since the early 2000s. His practical understanding of the Japanese influences on the system have allowed students around the world to connect deeply with this practice. Frans is a co-founder of the International House of Reiki with Bronwen Logan (Stiene). He has also co-authored with her the critically acclaimed books The Reiki SourcebookThe Japanese Art of Reiki, and A-Z of Reiki Pocketbook.

Heal Anxiety with this Question Mantra


The mind is beautiful.

Our capacity to strategize, plot, and plan, is what allows us to build cities, invent amazing technologies, and coordinate vast interactions across the network we call the Internet. The human mind is indeed amazing.

And, yet, it is also true that the human mind can be obsessed with its job. It’s like a workaholic—one who doesn’t want to take downtime or weekends off.

The mind wants to keep on calculating and planning even when we lay down our heads at night. It wants to plan our to-do lists while we make love or watch a sunset.

Rather than enjoying our lives and being in the present moment, the brain steps in and tries to control, strategize, and predict future outcomes—it can seriously get in the way of life!

Truly, this is an exhausting way to live.

I speak of these things from personal experience: I am in the process of healing from PTSD, and I have come to realize that my brain has especially adapted to worrying, as it is a highly-attuned and impeccable danger-sensor.

Most of us, regardless of whether we have dealt with trauma or not, struggle with some amount of anxiety and stress.

Many of us have turned to meditation or yoga as a path to freedom. We sit motionless on a cushion or we move our bodies on a yoga mat, and we come into present moment awareness. We breathe in and out; we remind our minds to calm down.

Yet, for so many of us, when we return again to our lives, when we stand up from the cushion or put away our mat, we are confused on how we stay with the feeling of presence—the feeling of peace. How do we remain in the relaxed state?

Last week, I began the process of applying for a teaching position that I very much want. I sat down at my computer, fresh from a beautiful night’s sleep, ready to begin the process. I felt excited and good.

First, I began to write an application letter—all was well, I was smiling. But then I encountered a snag: as I scanned the application materials list, I realized I needed to submit student evaluations from my previous years of teaching. My breath became shallower, as I searched my home in vain, only to confirm the sinking feeling that yes, indeed, all the documents I needed had been lost when I’d moved the previous year.

I began to panic, my palms began to sweat, and my heart began to race. Minute by minute, moment by moment, my sense of well-being disappeared, and I began to feel my body tighten, and my breath contract. The inner critic began her relentless tirade: Why are you such an idiot, Anya? Why aren’t you more organized? Why are you so sloppy? What the hell’s the matter with you?

At this point, I was way too triggered to take the time to roll out my yoga mat or find my meditation cushion. No way. I had to do something—now.

So, I tried a new method I’ve been practicing, which, lately, has been a real life-saver for me. I closed my computer, remained seated right there at my desk, and asked myself a simple question: “What is happening right now?”

I took a few slow breaths and then repeated the question.

“What is happening right now?”

Then, slowly, I began to talk to myself, aloud, “Well, I am a woman who is 33 years old, and I’m sitting in a chair. I am a woman who is wearing blue jeans. A woman who has a roof over her head and food in the refrigerator. I am a woman who is unable to find some documents. That is what is happening right now.”

In asking and answering the simple question mantra—what is happening right now?—I was able to move my brain out of past and future mode—out of overwhelmed, panic mode. I moved a bit closer to a calmer, observation mode, and a bit closer to inner peace.

Asking yourself a question mantra, such as “What is happening right now?” or “What is the reality of this moment?” (or something along those lines) can help you detach from the swirl of mind-stress, and help you enter the reality of the actual present moment, aside from any emotions and the stories the brain likes to tell.

Even if the outward conditions of your life seem to be crashing down around you—you are still alive, you are still breathing, and you still have blessings to count.

When you take a few moments to ask, the answer to your question “What is happening now?” can always be: I am here in this body, breathing, and alive on planet Earth.

While I was living in Puerto Rico a few years ago, I once got lost in the jungle and I was totally alone. My water was running out, my cell phone had no signal, and daylight was running short.

After screaming, “Help!” at the top of my lungs for about an hour or so, I sank down in the dirt, exhausted, and utterly panicked.

Then I took a breath. Then another shaky breath. And then I asked myself the question:

“What is happening now?”

“What is happening now?”

“What is happening now?”

In that moment, my eyes were instantly drawn to a purple patch of flowers a few feet away—they were gorgeous! They were delicate, with yellow centers and petals that looked like clouds. Next, my eyes were drawn upwards, up the trunk of a majestic palm tree.

Coconuts were hanging from every branch, and tears of joy began rolling down my face. It was in that moment that I woke up, and realized the sheer beauty of my surroundings. I realized the beauty of life. Whether I would die that day was unknown. What was known was exactly what was happening in that moment. Such beauty—such wonder.

Just a few hours later, I was able to find my way out of the jungle. By bringing myself into the present moment, I was able to, when the time was right, rise up from the dirt, take a deep determined breath, and move forward, renewed. My intuition felt stronger, calm, connected, and I was able to sense how to get out.

As you say your question mantra in times of trouble, allow yourself to see what is really happening in that moment. Allow yourself to see, feel, and perceive. Allow yourself to relax and trust.

And you will see—time and time again—that all is well. All is beautiful. There is nothing wrong and nothing to fix. You are you—and you are alive. So beautifully alive!

There is so much to be thankful for.


Many thanks to the awesome folks at elephant journal, who also published this article.

How to be an Empath without Suffering


The term empath denotes an individual who is more sensitive to the energetic experience of others, whether it be people in close physical proximity, or some type of non-local interaction such as over the phone or online or simply thinking of a certain person.

In all actuality, every single individual is empathic and intuitive. We all have the ability to fine-tune our sensitivities and increase our clarity of awareness.

We all feel the energy flow of those around us to some extent, but most of this may go unnoticed. Without really understanding the details of our energetic connections, we will react to the energies and emotions of those we interact with every single day, but on a subconscious level. That is, unless we become aware of our empathically sensitive nature.

Some of us may identify with the term empath in order to justify why we feel like a victim to other people’s energies. It’s a somewhat common understanding of the empath persona to feel so deeply that we feel overwhelmed by other people’s energies quite regularly. Some may feel so overwhelmed by erratic emotions, especially when in large crowds, that we determine we just prefer the more solitary life of an introvert and decide not to go out very often. In extreme cases, we feel it’s best just to stay home, except for very specific outings we feel obligated to accomplish, such as work and grocery shopping.


You Can be Empathic Without Suffering


To become more reclusive because we are energetically sensitive is unnecessary. There is a way to be an empathically sensitive individual who can comfortably go out in large crowds, even for long periods of time. We can interact with others and not get upset by the chaotic or the seemingly ‘low’ energies that others exude. I know it’s possible, because I am also extremely sensitive and empathic myself.

Empaths are very sensitive to energies, which means being highly sensitive to emotions (energies in motion). The reason why is because empaths have naturally very wide-open heart centers.

The empath’s heart chakra is extremely strong, open and intensely tuned-in. We are sensitive to other’s emotional (energetic) states because our energy field is in tune with the flow of energy between ourselves and the individual(s) with whom we are interacting.

Our heart is our emotional facilitator: and when it’s strong and open, we are emotionally very aware.

Being so energetically tuned in is why some of us get overwhelmed in large crowds. It can feel extremely chaotic and challenging to clearly understand what we are experiencing within ourselves versus what energies we may be sensing from others.

What we call emotion is simply our personal impression of the creative life-force energy flowing as, through, and within our being. This vibrant life-force energy is always flowing as a divinely orchestrated harmonic symphony, the quality of which is impeccably perfect and isn’t logically understood by analyzing, but only experientially realized as it’s felt and known within the core of our being.

When we experience this creative life-force flow clearly, we tend to become transfixed in a state of complete reverence and awe for the utter beauty that encapsulates us. Vibrant wellness is our natural state when we allow energy to flow through us. Being in an energetic state of absolute allowance, in each moment, is experienced as total peace with What Is.


Allowing the Ebb and Flow of Life


We may perceive the life-force energy flowing within our being as potentially negative or positive. But those thoughts are just our personal judgments, based on whether we are openly embracing that moment or if we are viewing our experience through the confused lens of fear and insecurity, creating resistance to that moment as it is.

The energy of life exists as the infinite flow of creation, and is neither negative or positive… yet it does ebb and flow, expand and contract. We cannot escape this flow or the cyclical shifts within it. We can only honor the entire flow in all its glory, so that we may be at peace with What Is.

What we may consider negative—such as death and destruction—is simply the creative process of eliminating what’s no longer vibrantly useful, opening up space for more expansion, and essentially creating the new from a fresh foundation.

All is a part of nature’s creative flow.

Yin and Yang occurs in this physical life experience, no matter how much suffering, struggle, and pain we may scream out against as a plea for it to stop. All is extremely sacred and vital, no matter how we may perceive it in the moment.

When we see clearly, we experience all as the sacred flow of infinite love. Struggle and suffering occurs because of our resistance against the contractual ebb of the sacred flow, not as an actual component of the flow.

We ourselves exist as the sacred flow of life. We are all innocent expressions of this sacredness in physicality. Our feelings exist as our individual impression of this creative flow as it coincides and connects with our personal experience.

When we are in a state of full allowance, being completely open energetically and by embracing all just as it is, we feel the emotions as being extremely pleasant and positive. The energy flowing unimpeded is what causes us to feel peace, serenity, contentment, calm, inner reflection, grace, limitless expansion, creativity and reverence for all.


Fear is Resistance


When we doubt, or buy into fear, we are seeing this energy through a perception that interprets the flow of energy as harsh, upsetting, disturbing, and antagonistic. We may have thoughts that tell us there’s a potential problem, and we may get caught up in the idea that something needs to be solved, resolved, protected against, proven, defended, or justified. We may feel stressed out, sad, angry, or uneasy because we buy into beliefs that lack may be our ultimate destiny.

Fear that all may not be well distorts our perception, causing us to experience the energy flow as uncomfortable and undesirable. Many of us tense up to resist the flow of energy when we fearfully perceive it as negative, because we think we should avoid feeling it in order to protect ourselves. We may suppress feeling anything we perceive as negative because we think we must ‘be positive’ to keep ourselves in a ‘higher state of vibration’ or to effectively create the reality we desire.

Our emotional state is always our own individual interpretation of the sacred flow of life.

Allowance is our naturally harmonic state of pure being which honors everything we experience and feel. Resistance, due to inner fear and feeling unworthy, is an effort to try and restrict the flow of energy within our experience, with the intention of keeping us safe—and yet doing so keeps us struggling against what is and only offers us suffering along the way.


Judgement Disrupts the Flow of Life


When we are empathically sensitive and feel uncomfortable when interacting with an individual, we may determine the other individual’s energy as ‘low’, ‘dense’, ‘heavy’ or ‘negative’. That’s when many of us empaths may determine it’s time to leave the situation to avoid that which we don’t prefer.

If we have determined another’s energy as ‘low’ or ‘negative’, that is an indicator we hold judgments and are buying into a belief of inferior and not ‘good enough’.

We only judge that which we fear. We only judge that which we deny and that which we’ve ignored within our own selves.

We judge another’s anger when we’ve suppressed our own anger. We resent another’s flow of joy when we’ve sacrificed our own joyful flow. We may also misinterpret or take another’s ‘negative’ energy personally, because we don’t realize we have unresolved insecurities within ourselves.

Our level of comfort or discomfort is always our own perception of the energetic flow. We do not experience another’s interpretation of the flow of energy, as that is filtered through their own state of being, beliefs, and awareness.

When we allow the life-force energy within our own field to flow freely (even during the ebbs of contraction), we will not determine (judge) the flow of energy within another as negative or bad, ever, no matter how the other individual experiences their own energy. We will honor the flow of energy as we and they each choose to experience it—without our personal judgments of how open or closed, dense or light, low or high we think their flow of energy may be and without feeling the need to analyze all the potential reasons why their energy may or may not be flowing.


Become Empowered as an Empath


The best way to become empowered as an empathically sensitive individual is to strengthen and increase our conscious awareness of our own connective flow to the sacred energy of life.

If we take full responsibility for our entire experience of life, we will choose to honor our own creative flow.

We can follow our heart and our knowing, and create our own amazing experiences from the joyful passion of our innermost essence. In this way, we are not actually increasing the energy itself, but are simply becoming more consciously aware of the sacred flow of energy (life) and our individual connection to it.


Strengthen the Solar Plexus to Ground Emotional Experiences


Finally, we can become more conscious as we perceive our individual energetic flow as an aspect of our power center, our solar plexus chakra. The solar plexus is the energy center within our gut that determines our level of confidence in our physical expression. This is our power center because it’s where the flow of life-force energy is most directly felt within the physical body.

As this chakra is located directly below our heart, it’s the main energy center uniting the physical human aspect of our being with our more etheric energetic essence; it is the bridge between our more intuitive senses/aspects and the physical component of our being.

Our heart and solar plexus unify our cosmic universal energy within the active physical expression of our being in human form. Our solar plexus is the vital energy center which provides us the means to actualize our fulfillment here in the physical world.

By strengthening our solar plexus, we balance our huge heart center with the grounded, physical components of our being, uniting our sacred divinity within the physicality of our human vessel. We more readily actualize our fulfillment within the physical as we apply our inner knowing confidently, by aligning our choices in each moment with our gnosis, as we balance and strengthen our solar plexus to match our already-huge hearts.

Having a huge heart but not being able to physically express that energy will only result in feeling emotionally unstable, as a victim to our circumstances and the people that form our experience, while feeling unable to physically manifest our greatest dreams.

When we embrace that which is unconscious within, enveloping all the potential unknowns with total compassion, we will no longer judge that which is unconscious within others.

Embracing all that we avoid, reject, suppress, ignore, and deny with absolute compassion offers our wounded innocence solace.


Allow Life to Flow with Unconditional Compassion


By fully facing, acknowledging, and shining the light of awareness on that which we fear, that which may appear hideous in ourselves or others, we can then perceive the exquisite beauty of our wounded innocence. We make that which is unconscious conscious.

Everything we have determined as either good or bad in the outside world exists as a mirror, reflecting that which we honor and embrace within or those aspects which we reject, deny, and resist within ourselves.

Unconditional compassion is not threatened, bothered, or upset by anything.

When we sense another’s unresolved pain, we will feel compassion if we’ve offered our own pain compassion. We do not like that which we’ve denied within. We are bothered only by that which we do not embrace within ourselves. We judge what we deny within. We reject in others that which we reject within ourselves.

As empaths, when we use all that we experience in our world to more clearly know our divine Self, we offer ourselves the gorgeous gift of taking total accountability for and embracing all aspects of our being with unconditional compassion. We recognize our entire experience is a miracle, a divine gift of eternal sacredness—and not a burden, test or struggle we must endure.

By accepting, embracing, and honoring all aspects of our own being, we will naturally offer the same compassion to all those with whom we experience the journey of life.


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Anna Horst is Creator, Energetic Empress, Psycho-Spiritual Consultant, & Empowerment Adviser at ConsciousManifesting.com

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of August 7-13, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.



~ WEEK OF AUGUST 7-13, 2017 ~


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There is a point of light in the heart. Feel this through the Harmony Card (10 of Water).photo_water 10

For it is within the heart that all light, all love, all wisdom emerges. For it is from within the heart that the cool, calm waters of harmony manifest.

As we dissolve into the peace of these waters, beautiful creations (as represented by dolphins on this card) are born. We bring forward our true spirit, which manifests as lovely works of art.

We are all artists.

I once met a man on a university campus. We shook hands and looked into each other’s eyes. When I inquired what sort of work he did, he told me, with pride and joy in his smile: “I fix elevators. I am responsible for all the elevators on campus. This is my great passion, my life’s work. I am an artist of elevators.”

This week, notice how you are able to accomplish your own artistic creations, your own stunning works of art, in a more fluid, relaxed fashion. Notice how you are learning to trust the Universe. Notice how there is a spaciousness and an ease in which you do your work. This is because your creation is truly coming from the light in your heart.

Indeed, the light begins in your heart, and then flows up to fill your third eye, your chakra of intuition, and the beauty that manifests is perfectly balanced and harmonious. It is a gift to the world.



I find it lovely that this week both cards are focused on points of light. In the previous Harmony Card, we see two points of light: one in the heart, and one in the third eye chakra. Here on the Totality Card (5 of Fire), we see a point of light encircling the hands of the beautiful ones who are ready to connect.photo_fire 5

Your growth for this week is about cultivating the courage to let go and trust others. There is someone(s) in your life lately who has been reaching out a hand to you—are you brave enough to let go of the past and your old expectations and, rather, clasp hands with this new version of yourself as represented by the one trying to help you?

We are all One. At a certain level, there is no such thing as anyone trying to attack you or hurt you, because each experience is manifested from a Universe that wants Love to prevail.

Each painful situation is only Love in disguise, helping us wake up.

Similarly, each person in our life who extends a helping hand is, really, the Universe dressed up in fabulous disguise. That person is really you.

If we can learn to let go, as the trapeze artists do, and soar through the air, perfectly in tune with each moment, trusting that the other person (the Universe) has “got our back,” then we can harness the joyful fires of passion in our lives. We can be present, fully aware, and enjoying all the amazing adventures that life has to offer!


Dear friends,

It is my pleasure to bring you the wisdom that channels through me each week. Truly, it does not come from “me” (not from the mind)…it comes from beyond. I am simply a humble conduit.

Thanks for being here.

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Lots of Love,

Anya Light

preparing herbs for tea blends during my recent stay at the permaculture community, East Brook Farm

Love is the New Religion


We are born to love.

As every mother knows, cradling her newborn child, love is the reason we are here.

As any lover knows, gazing into the eyes of their beloved, love is the reason we are here.

While it is true that we may hold vastly different beliefs, that we may pursue radically different paths and passions…at core, love is what connects us. Love joins our hearts.

Those of us who prefer logic and scientific methods experience love in just the same way that mystics do. In fact, there is no dividing line between those who pride themselves on their intellect and those who pride themselves on their meditative states. Love is the common factor of us all. Love unites us.

And when we look around our world today, at all of its changes, challenges, and growing pains, we see one common theme emerge. Love.

Love is what we seek. It is the new religion of our age: the glue that binds us, the spark that motivates us, the path that propels us forward.

If we look at the etymology of the word religion, we see it comes from the Latin root ligare, meaning “to bind.” Indeed, we are on a journey of coming together. We are stepping out of our old divisions, out of our old closets of fear and prejudice. We are, as a collective species, learning to drop the harmful dogmas of the past, the old fundamentalist religions of yesterday, and stepping into the new—love.

Love bind us. In love, we see we are not separate.

We are one human family. We are one beautiful planet.

Of course, many of us have different definitions of “love.” This is good! Our varied experiences and ways of defining love is a benefit to the shifts and changes our global community is currently experiencing. Diversity is beautiful and healing. Through varied ways of understanding and conceptualizing love, we can widen our hearts, and perceive the stories of those whose daily lives and customs might differ from our own.

For example, let’s travel to India. Let’s sit down in a marketplace and speak with a stranger. As we listen, we learn that the most love this person has ever felt was on the day his wife was cremated in a public ceremony, in an Antyesti. As we listen deeply, we might learn that this man, this man who cared for his wife so deeply, felt his consciousness expand when he saw his beloved’s body burst into a million billion flames. We learn how a deep sense of awe arose in his heart as her flesh turned to smoke before his eyes. We realize that the catastrophic pain and trauma he experienced through losing his wife was actually, paradoxically, the key to his spiritual breakthrough. He realized that death was not the end of life, but merely a transition. He learned that love does not end…love continues.

Yes, if we talk to this man in India, he will no doubt define love in a different way than a man would in Australia or a woman would in Belgium. We all have different definitions of “love,” many different words to describe, based upon our unique cultures and upbringings. And that’s okay! Because, at core, love is not a word or a definition…love is, rather, an energy. A state of being. And we have all felt it. It is what we share.

About seven years ago, I began to explore both polyamory and spirituality. For many years prior, I had been very staunchly anti-religious and quite bitter about what I perceived to be the shitty conditioning implanted into me by the fundamentalist Christian church in which I was raised—a church that condemned gays to hell and pronounced sex outside of marriage a terrible sin. Once I left my parents’ house and entered college, new ways of life began to open. I began to breathe fresh air. In my studies and social life, I began to connect with different kinds of people across different backgrounds—people whose basic assumptions about life were very, very different from mine. I also began sharing my poetry at coffee shops and in magazines. Through this art form, I began to experience my own creativity and intuition in a way that I’d never been able to do before.

My husband and I began to explore polyamorous relationships around the time we both began to explore meditation. We began to realize that opening our hearts and intimately connecting with others beyond our union of two was deeply healing and profoundly joyful. And as we began exploring polyamory, we began to also explore altered states of consciousness—states where the rational brain was no longer explicitly in control. These states were achieved through various practices: breathing, yoga, Reiki, dance, tantric sex, and plant medicine ceremonies. It was around this time that I began to realize that even though I’d freed myself from the confines of conservative religion, there was still a desire within my heart to explore the parts of me that dwelt in something other than the mind, something other than logic or rational analyses.

A few years later, I began working as a healer and spiritual teacher. As I dedicated my life to this thrilling work, I sensed that what would be most beneficial for me would be to open my heart—not only by exploring the wonderful ways I might connect, learn, and share with new poly partners, but also by exploring the ways that I might connect with the spirit of each and every single person I encountered in my daily life. The woman bagging my groceries began to take on as much importance as my lover in bed. The man handing me cash at the bank began to take on a dearness that had been previously reserved for my husband. I became thrilled by the love energy that was flowing from my eyes, my heart, and my hands, positively uplifting everyone on its path.

As my journey progressed, I began to realize that, more than anything else, what humanity needs, right now, is love.

Indeed, love is not just about sex and romantic partnering. Love is much, much more. Love is compassion, acts of kindness. Love is a twinkle in the eye; love is laughter in the heart. Love is doing for others.

Most importantly, love is loving ourselves. Love is looking in the mirror each morning and saying to our own reflection, “You are beautiful! You are awesome! I love you!”

We came to this life to love.

Love dissolves the feeling of separation that seems to come between us. Love lets us feel close again.

Love lets us forget ourselves: forget our own pain, our own struggles—if only for a moment. Love heals. Love unites.

Indeed, love is the new religion of our times. I believe this is why polyamory is rapidly gaining popularity and public recognition. As relationship radicals such as poly and LGBTQ folks free themselves from the limiting cultural norms and dogmatic religious constructs of an old paradigm that is on its last legs (Trump represents the last dying gasps of an old way of viewing the world), new kinds of families and new kinds of community are being created. No longer are we isolated into our separate monogamous dyads, fearfully protecting and shielding ourselves from a scary outside world. No. There is, more and more, a brave intuition that what makes the most sense now is to come out and come together. Now is not the time for closets, retreat, and fear—no. What we need to do, right now, is to bravely come together, opening our hearts and sharing our lives and stories.

On this new path, we drop our judgements and see each person for the divine beautiful soul that they are. We see beyond the outward appearance, behind the names and roles and occupations, and see the glimmer of pure life force within. We see ourselves as brothers and sisters, in love.

As we create this new planet, we create from a space of love, putting in place new modes, new forms, new structures, new expressions of what it can mean to be a human being.

As we wake up, we create more love, from love.

We transform. Everything.



Tarot for the Soul ~ week of July 31-August 6 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.


~ Your Reading ~

Week of July 31, 2017

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This week, the Fighting Card (Knight of Clouds) is reversed in meaning.photo_clouds Knight

In other words, this week will be a week of peace.

If you look at the figure in this card, there are three predominant colors: black, white, and red. His eyes and his “trigger” buttons located on his armor are all red, indicating fire, rage, and intensity. Yet, the rest of the image is black and white. This is because when we are in fighting mode, the world seems black and white to us—right and wrong, good and bad, yes and no.

This week, my dear friend, you will be gifted with the opposite meaning of how this card is traditionally read.

This week, you will be gifted with a range of relaxed, flexible seeing. You will not be tense like in the figure on the card, but rather you will be loose, and you will be able to see a variety of colors of our beautiful world. People and situations will not be black and white; rather, you will see things as they truly are: as beautiful, nuanced, and full. What a gift!

This week, those people who usually trigger anger will come into your field and your reaction will be one of peace, calm, and love. You will be able to see past your own ego’s need to maintain authority or a sense of rightness, and you will, rather, relax into the depths of friendship with the Universe. You will surrender to the perfection of each moment, and you will be able to feel another layer of your ego release.

Therefore, the character on this card depicts the phase that you are moving beyond. Indeed, you are—more and more with every passing day—at peace with life, at peace with yourself. You see all the exquisite beauty. You recognize that the only way to be happy is to stop the fighting.


Your area for growth and change this week is represented by the Comparison Card (5 of Clouds).comparison card

This week is a great time to shed some of the old conditioning that asks you to compare yourself to others. It’s a great time to stop the madness!

Truly, one of the surest and quickest ways to depression, anxiety, and negative emotions is the act of comparison! When we compare, we make false judgements based in the ego. We say to the apple, “Why aren’t you more like a pear?” And we say to the pear, “Why the heck can’t you be more like that apple?”

Truly, comparisons are madness, a disease of the human mind.

All of us humans live in a society that is based on comparisons, on competition, and on warring with each other. So, it’s no wonder we all have some healing work to do!

This week, the challenge is to notice the moments when you are comparing yourself to someone else: either looking for ways that you are supposedly superior, or looking for ways that someone else is supposedly better than you. In the first scenario, your ego is looking for a boost by demeaning someone else. In the second, your ego is simply looking to maintain itself—and having an inferiority complex works quite well for keeping the ego intact! (“Woe is me” is a wonderful way to maintain a “me” focus.) Indeed, both types of comparison only bring suffering, because they are rooted firmly in the ego.

When we intentionally take steps in our lives to move out of the ego, we see our Divine connection to all beings, and we can appreciate the beautiful and unique ways that all of us contribute to the grand story of life. We move beyond judgment and we move into acceptance. We move into gratitude.

This week, each time you notice a comparison coming up in your mind, simply notice it, and then turn it into a moment of gratitude. Ask yourself: “What am I grateful for in this moment? What is wonderful about this moment? How is this person a gift in my life? How is this person uniquely contributing to the Universe? How am I uniquely contributing to the Universe?”

It’s going to be okay. The disease of comparison is not a fatal disease. It is one that can be healed. Simply set your intention, and then feel the healing happen.


Dear loves,

I am so grateful for each of you. Thank you for your presence here. I am sending you radiant blessings for a beautiful week!

Feel free to get in touch if you feel called to schedule a one-on-one reading with me via phone, Skype, or email.

If you found this reading helpful of if you have any questions, please leave a comment. I’d love to hear how these readings are impacting your life.

Endless love,

♥ Anya Light ♥


Tarot for the Soul ~ week of July 24, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.



WEEK OF JULY 24, 2017


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You are being asked by the Universe, by the higher forces of light and love, to express yourself and feel the joy. This week, my friends, is all about Creativity (3 of Major Arcana).creativity card

This is a beautiful week indeed! You are being asked to abandon yourself to the sheer joy of creating: whether that be writing in your journal, dancing alone in your living room, crafting an uplifting message on social media, making a meal, carving wood, singing a song, or selecting a beautiful outfit in the morning.

It is time for you to feel, truly feel, where the source of all creativity emerges from. It is time for you to feel, truly feel, the dissolution of ego, the dissolution of separateness, that happens when we create from a space of love.

When we allow ourselves to be a conduit for the Divine Source…the dance does the dancer. The song sings the singer. The paint paints the painter. The artist becomes a host and a vessel for love.

Usually in our society, we think of creativity in the opposite way. We think of learned techniques and mastery that supposedly comes from years of training. We think of degrees and certificates of achievement. Yet that is not the deepest truth of how creativity happens. The deepest truth is the reality that the purest and most beautiful forms of creativity can only come when we surrender to Source, to God, to Goddess, to the Universe (whatever you want to call it).

It is through the brave surrender of the small self that we can flow into the blissful, ecstatic embrace of the Big Self, the Infinite. A feeling washes over us. It is a wonderful feeling that, somehow, we have always known this connection, have always known this love and fun.

For, truly, creativity is nothing more than fun. Enjoying life. We came here to this planet to experience joy. The Buddha said that life is suffering—but his message was meant for those who were/are ready to begin the process of waking up. He wanted to show what we are leaving behind. He wanted to contrast the new way (happiness) with the old way (suffering).

Many of us, lightworkers and wayshowers of a new humanity, came to Planet Earth with a specific intention. We came here with the mission to heal and awaken others, to end suffering. And, yet, let us not make our mission into a grim duty. Our mission is not meant to be melancholic or serious. Rather, the way we can best shine our light in the world and complete our missions is to wholeheartedly surrender to the creative force that flows through us—joyfully!


This week, your two cards fit together in a very lovely and obvious fashion. Let us contemplate how the Politics Card (7 of Clouds) fits with the Creativity Card.politics card

The Politics Card shows us a politician who is hiding behind a mask of innocence and beauty. Underneath, though, his hidden face is green, sickly, grotesque. Underneath the mask, he is a snake. His purpose is to tempt you, just like the snake tempted Adam and Eve in the Biblical story of the downfall of humanity.

Who is this politician?

This week, I invite you to ask that question, and to see the ways in which you yourself complete activities, tasks, and interactions in your daily life in a way that holds the energy of the politician. In what ways do you try to manipulate situations, people, and life in general in order to try to get what you want? In what ways do you not present your real face to life?

Our real face is that of relaxed joy. Our real face is that of loose (not tense) shoulders; our real face is that of deep (not shallow) breathing. Our real face is the face of creativity, innocence, spontaneity, compassion, curiosity, peace, and joy. Our real face, our real self, has no persona and no hidden motive. It is what it is—nothing to pretend, nothing to hide.

Have you ever loved someone so much that you simply could not lie to them? Have you ever cared for someone so much that you put their needs before your own? Have you ever felt so in tune with the Universe that you smiled at strangers on the street? Those kinds of energies, my friends, are the kinds of energies of our true self. The connected self. The whole self. The self that is in the constant flow of creativity.

By taking some time to look deeply into ourselves, even if it’s painful, asking ourselves some tough questions about when we try to manipulate—rather than trust—life, then we can begin to unravel some of that old energy of deceit.

In this day and age, hardly anyone believes that politicians can “save” us. We simply are too smart for that. We understand that saving comes from within. There is no politician that can swoop down from heaven and magically wave their wand at the troubles of our planet and fix it all. No. Rather, now, we as a collective human species are waking up to the reality that what needs to be attended to, during this time, is internal work. Each one of us needs to spend more time each day in silence and meditation, more time in self-reflection, more time in spiritual practice and looking deeply into what motivates us, and what it is that best serves the healing process within.

For, truly, when our focus is not on impressing others with our outward masks, but rather on healing our own hearts regardless of what others say or think, then the need to hold that old mask dies away—and what is left in its place is the real face. The face of love. The face that radiates the flow of all creation.


Thanks so much friends. I hope this reading was helpful for you. Please reach out if you’d like a one-on-one reading with me. I offer these via phone or Skype.

Hugs & more Hugs,

Anya Light

Dancing with creativity, dancing with love…

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of July 17, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck, offering you guidance for your week ahead.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to recognize them and cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.



WEEK OF JULY 17, 2017


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Our gifts this week include the comfort and the peace of knowing that wherever we go, we are at home in the Universe. This is portrayed by the Slowing Down Card (Knight of Rainbows).WP_20170709_001

In any situation, regardless of geographic location or the people we are with, we are always at home. Like a lovely turtle, we carry our homes with us.

The turtle shell is a metaphor for our heart—and that is where can always tune. No matter what’s going on, we can always close our eyes, and breathe and be with our heart. When we slow down and feel our heart, there is a deep sense of self-acceptance that arises. There is self-love.

This week, when life around you seems hectic or even chaotic, take some time to breathe, slow down, and feel into your heartspace. Feel this space expand with love. Know that you are home, wherever you are. There is no need to rush anywhere or accomplish anything—because you are completely full, completely whole, right here right now. In this moment.



This week’s card indicates a suggestion for you to drop into your Innocence (19 of Major Arcana).Unknown

First of all, I think it’s fascinating that this week’s reading brought in two animals. The tortoise (as just discussed) and the praying mantis.

The praying mantis is perched on the wise monk’s finger, and it looks like the bug is teaching the monk!

Indeed, as we walk along our life’s path, our soul’s awakening journey, we can learn so much from the animal kingdom. They can be some of our most profound teachers.

While the tortoise teaches us to slow down and accept ourselves, the praying mantis teaches us about the miracle of curiosity and intelligence. These small insects are incredibly keen, and if we watch them long enough, we begin to get a sense of their powerful capabilities to reason, to plan, to think. Gazing at a praying mantis is rather surreal—you begin to feel like you’ve entered another planet! A planet where the bugs are just as smart as the humans!

In this Innocence card, we see a wise sage having a deep communion with the insect. We see the sage’s face: full of surprise, wonder, awe, and play. There is a youthful innocence to the scene: springtime flowers in full bloom decorate the background, and the colors are soft and radiant.

The man and the insect seem to be having a deep moment of connection. The praying mantis is cocking his head to one side, as if to say, “What is your story, old man?” He seems to be asking a question, and the old sage seems to be delighting in not knowing the answer. The old sage seems to be speechless. Happy. Content to enjoy watching his little friend, wordless, and learning from it.

To cultivate this kind of patient, curious innocence is an opportunity for great growth in our lives. It is perhaps the greatest intelligence. If we can realize that the bugs of this world have as much to teach us about life as do books, if we can realize that the birds have as much to teach us about love as our lovers, if we can realize that all the sages in the universe can only hint at the beauty of a rose, then we will be fulfilled. We will walk this Earth, in a profound sense of lightness and joy.

This week, can you recall your youthful, curious innocence? Can you delight in this world around you? Can you learn from unexpected sources?


Have a wonderful, blessed week!

If you’d like to schedule a private reading with me, please get in touch!

Love Always,

♥ Anya ♥



The Exquisite Combination of Lucid Dreaming and Sacred Sexual Healing



In my practice as a Sacred Sexual Healer and Transformational Guide, part of my role is to serve as a sexual shaman. The heart of this shamanic role involves widening my fields of perception, as well as helping others achieve this. I work to open the doors of seeing.

This work manifests in a number of ways, including working in spirit realms and dream space.

In a lucid dream, we can make conscious choices that influence the course of the dream.

Lucid dreaming enables us to interact, with intention, with aspects of our deeper selves. 

When I began this work, I had been reading a wonderful book I’d received from my mentor, Lucid Dreaming: Gateway to the Inner Self. This book introduced me to the concept of using lucid dreaming to heal yourself or others. This involves making a conscious choice while dreaming to offer healing.  (Of course, when offering healing to others you must always ask permission, just as you would if you were offering healing in waking life.)

There was a fascinating synchronicity in the fact that I was reading this book at a time when I was feeling sick. I had a brutal sore throat and my voice had become quite wonky.  One night it reached a point at which I was experiencing knife-like pain in my throat, and I was coughing and congested and generally felt pretty miserable.

I wanted to do something to ease the pain in my throat, and I decided it wouldn’t hurt to try a little lucid dreaming. I decided to hold the intention to enter into lucid dream and heal my throat, with all of my shamanic awareness. I admit: As I began, I was very skeptical, but ultimately, I was so blown away and grateful for what opened up.

There are a number of techniques one can use to enter into a journey of lucid dreaming.  I will describe the methods that I used.

The journey began with focusing my attention very strongly on my hands. I brought my awareness to my hands and held the intention that I would be able to use my hands as a way to remember that I was in control of the dream.

One of the methods I use to hold an intention during this or other shamanic work is to literally write it out on paper. I believe there is something quite powerful about bringing intention into physical reality by physically writing it down.

So, that night, I wrote my intention in my journal, and the words went something like this:

Tonight, while I am dreaming I will see my hands, and I will realize that I am dreaming. Once I realize I am dreaming, I will heal my throat.

I wrote those words down, and keeping my attention on my hands, recited them like a mantra. I had considered setting the intention of healing my whole body, as I did have other symptoms. But, I decided to keep the practice very simple, specific, and focused on my throat.

Part of the process I used to solidify my intention and enter into lucid dreaming involved working with my sexual energy.


Sex Magic: Working with sexual energy to manifest intention

Our sexual energy is the powerful, creative energy that is our life force. This is the energy that brought us into being. We can tap into this energy with a little intention and awareness, and of course with consent, integrity, and respect for our own bodies and for others.  I hold this to be very sacred.

There are many ways to work with sexual energy for healing. I will tell you about the steps I used.

  1. During self-pleasure, feel your sexual energy flowing through you.
  2. Begin to channel that energy towards your intention. (In my case, it was my mantra: My intention of seeing my hands in a dream, becoming aware, and healing my throat.)
  3. In particular, try to focus your sexual energy on an intention right at the moment of orgasm.
  4. Allow that yummy, spacious “WOW!” energy that we experience during orgasm to infuse your intention.

Indeed, I had an exquisite self-pleasure experience that night, despite the pain in my throat. It felt lovely and as I drifted off to sleep while still holding that mantra in my mind, I was smiling and felt like I was floating in a sort of blissful cocoon.

When I began to dream, I immediately saw my hands in the dream.  I was so surprised!  I was dreaming, and I knew it. In the dream, I was sitting in my yard. I was out in nature, which was even more cool! I became so excited that the dream dissolved and I woke up.

I was ecstatic that I had accomplished this, and I immediately wrote the experience down in my dream journal. However, I eventually realized that I hadn’t followed through with the rest of the intention. I had not done any work to heal my throat. I realized that I would have to go back. So, I focused again on my hands and recited my mantra and I gradually drifted again to sleep.

Similar to before, I was dreaming of being in my yard space, and I became aware that I was dreaming. I also became aware of a man who was to my right. I was tempted to engage with him, but I remembered to stay focused on my intention to heal my throat.

Looking at my hands in the dream, I saw that I was now holding a day lily bud. I knew it to be a day lily even though it looked somewhat different from those I was familiar with from waking life. I had been working recently with day lilies as an edible wild plant in my backyard. I had just learned that you can harvest the buds and sauté and eat them like green beans. They are just lovely.

I saw the day lily bud in my dream and I knew that I was supposed to eat it. So, I took a bite. And even though in waking life there is nothing inside the bud, when I tasted the dream lily it filled my mouth and throat with a cooling liquid that felt amazing. I received the liquid. I drew it in and knew I was supposed to eat the whole flower.

I had a moment in which I experienced a strange sense of anxiety about eating the flower; I wondered if it was safe. I had dreamed in the past of eating or drinking, but I had never before felt the physical sensation of consuming something, feeling its presence and texture in my mouth and body. I wondered if I should be doing this. After a bit of reflection, I decided that yes, this was the healing I had asked for, and I felt overwhelmed with gratitude and joy as I finished the lily bud.

I spent a little more time in my dream, some of it talking to the person who was sitting there to my right. The dream concluded after my interactions with him and I woke up. I wondered if I should try to go back to the dream, but I said no. I decided to just let things be and try not to notice anything right now about how I felt or anything that might have changed.

I recorded the dream in my journal and went back to sleep. During the night, I had a few other dreams that were semi-lucid and also centered on healing my throat. I had a dream in which I drank an herbal infusion, and another in which I ate a piece of chocolate.

The next morning when I woke, I nervously swallowed and checked in with my throat. To my astonishment, I perceived vast improvement. The previous night I would have ranked my pain as an “8” on a 1-to-10 severity scale.  This morning I rated it a “2” or a “3.” My voice was not quite returned to normal, but the sharp knife-like pain I had been experiencing was completely gone. I felt filled with gratitude to Spirit.


Trusting in the Possibilities of Spirit

I have continued to explore healing and lucid dreaming, as well as using sexual energy to help facilitate those transitions.

It can be so difficult at times to trust that there are other possibilities, and that by working with and through Spirit, we can have a significant impact on what we see as rock-solid consensus reality. We are vastly infinite energetic beings who for a time exist in a finite form. But we can still tap into that infinitude if we trust it.

This doesn’t mean we have to shed all of our skepticism. A good dose of skepticism can be healthy. But, if we can crack open the door just a little bit, and be willing to try and see what happens, then we can open ourselves to new worlds of possibility.

Part of this also involves trusting ourselves as creative human beings with the ability to impact our world as we continue to expand our awareness. At each step in our journey, we encounter moments when we recognize that new possibilities have opened to us. These are the moments when we need to slow down. Bring our awareness to our body, our minds, and shedding the layer that no longer serves us. We let go a little bit and let these things drop away. We slow down in these moments out of love and respect.

These are the basic tenets of opening our awareness and connecting with possibility. These are the basic tenets of trust


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Leslie Blackburn, MS, RCST® is a Sacred Sexual Healer & Transformational Guide—a leading educator and coach of sacred sexuality and tantra in the US. A former mechanical engineer specializing in quantum physics, and Ironman triathlete before her spiritual awakening, she has conducted thousands of individual client sessions, leads workshops regularly, and has reached thousands with her inspirational presentations ranging from intimate groups to large speaking engagements. Her monthly radio program is one of the most listened-to on Body Mind Spirit Radio. She bridges the gap between sexuality and spirituality, covering tantra, consciousness, sexual anatomy and energetics, yoga, meditation, sacred geometry, and more. Leslie’s personal path and work has been the integration of the ever-unfolding feminine in body and psyche with masculine direction and purpose—Love in Action! Find out more about her work at www.LeslieBlackburn.com