Tarot for the Soul ~ week of Sept 18-Sept 24, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.




This week is going to be a little different, dear friends.

As you know, I normally pull cards and interpret them for you.

What I’d like to invite you to do this week is to use your own powers of intuition to interpret the cards. Don’t worry—I will guide you.

Yes, you can do this!

So, I have drawn two cards, as usual, representing your gifts and growth opportunities for the week. Instead of offering direct interpretations for you, I will instead offer you some guiding questions. You may want to reflect on these questions by writing in your journal, or perhaps speak the answers out loud. Whatever ways you choose to work with the questions, you will soon clearly understand the significance of the cards and what they mean for your life.

One important tip about card interpretation: Don’t rush it. Give yourself adequate space for this exploration. At least twenty minutes is needed, or possibly more. Turn off your phone; unhook from social media, play some soothing meditation music, and light a candle or burn some incense. Create a sacred space for yourself. This helps unwind the busy nervous system, so we can more easily tap into our intuition.

Indeed, our intuition works best when we are relaxed.

As you breathe and relax, just gently play with the questions. What are the cards saying? What are you saying? Remember that there are no right or wrong answers. Every answer that pops into your head is exactly the Divine Guidance that will help you on your path. Don’t overthink it; just let it flow.

Dear friends, it is so important for you to understand that you can do what I do. Reading cards is not some “special” gift exclusive to some. No! Reading cards and other intuitive arts are simply that: arts. They are creative endeavors, available to all. Yes, it does take a bit of time and effort to feel comfortable in any art—but once we make the commitment to begin our training and explore ourselves through our intuitive sight…then, the world begins to open up its grand magic as never before.

And now…without further adieu, here are your cards!

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Your gifts for this week are represented by the Thunderbolt (XVI of Major Arcana).photo_16 Major Arcana

Here are some questions to ponder…

What do fire and lightning have in common? Where is the fire located, and why? Where is the lightning striking, and why? Who is the large shaded figure in the background of the card? Is this figure floating or is she/he resting on the ground? How would you characterize the emotional state of the two naked figures who are falling? How do the colors in the card make you feel? How would you describe the movement, action, or story of the card?

As you discern the symbols in this card, remember that gifts are not often what they appear. Often, gifts can be shrouded in mystery and paradox.

How does the Thunderbolt speak to you today? What does it whisper about your week ahead?


Your challenges of growth are seen in the Compromise card (6 of Rainbows).photo_rainbows 6

Here are some questions to ponder…

What emotions are brought up within you as you gaze at the card? What are the facial expressions of these two Japanese characters? Why are they touching pinkies? What kinds of clothing and objects are adorning their bodies? Would you want to share a cup of tea with these two men—why or why not? What are the colors of the card, and how do the colors relate to what they are doing? What situation or relationship in your life is represented by this card? What does it mean to compromise? What does it mean to agree? What is truth? How would you describe the movement, action, or story of this card?

How does the Compromise card speak to you in this moment? What truths is it trying to reveal and help you understand regarding your week ahead?

What challenges is the Compromise card attempting to forewarn you of?

In what ways will you meet those challenges? What intentions will you set?


Dearest friends,

I hope you’ve enjoyed interpreting your cards for this week.

Please know that I am available to you via Skype or phone for a private tutorial in how to read cards and strengthen your intuition. If you feel that little tingle of excitement as you read these words, then I encourage you to follow your heart and get in touch with me today!

Blessings & Eternal Radiant Light,

Anya ♥

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Daily Miracles: the Wooden Floor, the Meditation


Time spins and swirls: it doesn’t exist.

The great miracle is that we don’t lose the ones we love.

The ones we love stay with us. They shape us; they live and breathe inside our bones.

Today, I was missing someone. I sat down to meditate. I kept my eyes open and softly gazed at the wooden floor.

The patterns in the wood begin to spin and swirl. The light coming in from the window did a pretty, pretty dance.

For a few minutes, a few thoughts held on…

and…then…they were gone.

I was me. Just me again. Just me, with you. Us. The infinite Universe. A small being, and also everything.

You were there. The one I was missing. You were there.

The meditation bell rang, we did our bows, and then I put on my shoes. I entered the day.

Transcending Self-Sabotage: A Frequency Perspective



You’ve probably heard of self-sabotage.

Self-sabotage is when we find ourselves acting in ways that are totally contrary to what we have learned. In other words, we “know better”—and yet we do it anyway.

Why do we do this?

Today I’d like to talk with you about self-sabotage in a different way, a way you’ve probably never heard before.

I’d like to explain self-sabotage from an energetic perspective. From the perspective of frequency.


What are Frequencies?

In our daily lives, we exist in a constantly fluctuating range of energetic frequencies. The range always exists, meaning that there is always going to be the lowest rung on the ladder that we could possibly feel on any given day at that particular stage in our life, and, conversely, there is always going to be the highest rung that we could possibly feel given that particular stage of our life.

As time passes, what constitutes our typical range will change. What you are capable of experiencing changes. Over the years, your highs will get even higher. And as time passes, your lows will not be as low as they once were.

Simply put, frequencies are emotions. Emotions are frequencies. They are one and the same.

An emotion is simply a frequency interpreted by the body-mind. So, for example, sadness and depression could be characterized as a low frequency, while the emotions of happiness and joy could be characterized as a high frequency. Sensations in the body such as heaviness and sluggishness could be characterized as low frequency, while sensations such as lightness and flexibility could be characterized as high frequency.

If you feel like you’re slugging through thick mud, you are in low frequency. If you feel like your body is vibrating or floating, then you are in high frequency.

What we experience on any given day is going to fluctuate, from hour to hour, even sometimes from minute to minute. This fluctuation is a normal part of being alive in a body. Even the great enlightened sages and teachers fluctuate: they sometimes feel neutrality, calm, joy, bliss, sleepiness, peace, and sometimes they even feel sadness. We all fluctuate. To fluctuate in frequency is to be human.


The Pattern of Self-sabotage

If we can view emotions and sensations as existing in an ever-shifting range of frequencies, then we can understand self-sabotage and how to gently dissolve this pattern out of our existence.

Self-sabotage is when we engage in an action or behavior that lowers our frequency. It is often an addictive or compulsive behavior. Often, after we self-sabotage, we feel like we’ve just woken up out of a bad dream. There’s this hazy, surreal quality to the whole action of self-sabotage, and when we come out of it, we are left scratching our heads, thinking, “Why in the world did I do that?

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on self-sabotage in my own life.

I recently had a gathering at my home, where twenty incredible friends gathered to partake in delicious nutritious food together, sing magical songs, meditate, fire-spin, and participate in a group healing session. It was amazing, out-of-this-world! Many who participated in the event commented that it was the highest they’ve ever felt without using drugs.

I too left the event with a feeling of elation. The following day, I felt I was walking on a cloud. All of life made sense, and everyone I encountered looked as beautiful as the Buddha. There was a shine to everything, a glow.

Two days later, however, I found myself reaching for some chocolate. As I am recovering from adrenal fatigue syndrome, I know that it is best to avoid caffeine and sugar in my diet. I have learned, over and over, that what my body needs most is total peace and calm—not stimulation. There is not a shred of doubt in my mind that chocolate has negative consequences for my body.

And yet, I ate the chocolate. I ate a lot of chocolate. You could say I totally binged on chocolate.

As you might imagine, the next few days were hell. The caffeine interrupted my sleep patterns, and I was left a jittery, exhausted mess.

Why in the world did I do that to myself? Why did I make that lousy choice? At the outset, this seemed like a complicated inquiry for me to undertake. Yet, after reflecting and meditating, I realized that the answer was quite simple.

The answers to my questions are most easily revealed through an energetic perspective.

Let’s say you are flying high, like I was just after getting together with my friends… perhaps you just got a promotion at work, or perhaps you have just made love to your sweetie for the first time. Whatever the case, you are experiencing a higher rung on the ladder of your own personal frequency range. You are flying; you are free; perhaps you even feel weightless. You feel the world is vibrating to the beat of your own joyful heart, and you hope that you will somehow stay in this ecstasy forever.

But then the ego comes in. The ego doesn’t understand what joy feels like; the ego doesn’t understand what bliss feels like. The ego only knows separation and pain, and so that is what it tries to reinforce.

The ego decides, then, that the only thing it can do is to reassert yourself is to feed your mind doubts, worries, or lies.

When I reached for chocolate on that fateful day, I had the idea in my mind that maybe I would feel even better than I already did by eating the chocolate.

Is that crazy? Well, yes, of course—but that is exactly how the ego operates! The ego feeds us crazy ideas in order to re-establish itself and its own experience (pain, suffering, separation).

Based upon my years of experience as a person recovering from adrenal fatigue, I had learned without a shadow of a doubt that caffeine is one of the worst poisons I can put into my body. I knew this! And…yet…I believed the idea that the ego fed me: that if I ate the chocolate, I would be flying even higher than I was before.


Transcending the Pattern

Why did I believe the lie that the ego told me?

Well, there was clearly some subconscious things happening that I was unaware of. What I was experiencing, the day after the gathering of friends, was bliss. Total ecstasy. In Western culture, the state of bliss is not recognized as culturally acceptable behavior. There is, in fact, a deep suspicion of bliss. Bliss is seen as craziness, madness, as out-of-bounds from normal social existence.

I was in bliss—meaning, I was One with all. I was not concerned with paying my bills, I was not concerned with clocks and calendars. I remember walking around my neighborhood the day after the event, and seeing every stone, every blade of grass, and every person walking their dog as a piece of my own soul. I felt intimately connected to everyone and everything I saw. I felt deep love and compassion. This was bliss. This was what the great sages feel in every moment. This was enlightenment. This was it. I was it.

And then my ego totally freaked out. And, actually, justifiably so—because it felt like it was dying! It indeed was losing its grip on my reality.

The ego came in, reminding me (on a subconscious level) about the mandate against bliss in our culture. It came in, warning me that this high frequency might obliterate all the things in my life that I take for granted: maybe if I stayed in this state long enough, I would lose all my friends? Or maybe I would lose my work, my home? Maybe if I stayed in this state, my body might dissolve altogether or spontaneously combust?

All these worries and thoughts were fed to me, by my ego, on a subconscious level. I took them in. And then on, a conscious level, this thought appeared in my mind: If you eat chocolate, you might feel even more awesome than you already do.

The reality of living in a body in a Universe composed of energy is that energy fluctuates. After a few days, or perhaps at most a few weeks, my frequency, after my friendship gathering, would have dipped a bit lower as the days passed. It would have been normal, natural, and quite alright for me to dip down out of bliss, and perhaps into mid-range frequencies: feelings such as optimism, tenderness, safety, centeredness, stillness, peace, or mellow calm. That would have been normal, and to be expected.

And, yet, my self-sabotaging behavior caused me to quickly plummet to much much lower states such as anxiety and sadness.

If we want to understand why we engage in self-sabotage, we must understand it from the perspective of energy, of frequency. The ego wants to knock us down from high-frequency states—because it fears the dissolution of its own existence—by introducing erroneous logic into our minds. Because we are so high, so open and trusting of ourselves, then, during these high frequency states (where we see the perfection in everything, the love in all), we then can sometimes fail to use logic in making decisions. It is as if the ego knows we are liable to say “yes” to anything, because we feel so good. We trust. And, yet, this trust without logic will ultimately be our downfall, as we engage in self-sabotaging behavior.

Yes, it is good to trust and to surrender to the Universe, but it is also imperative that we continue to use logic and rationality when faced with certain choices in our lives. For example, if we are healing from alcohol abuse, then, whilst in a state of bliss, the ego might arise and whisper: “It won’t hurt to have a drink now. I can handle it; I won’t become addicted again.” If a thought like this occurs to us, we can simply note that the thought is in reference to a pattern of addiction. A warning flag can then go up in our mind. With loving attention, we can review the past of our lives, review our intentions for the future, and make the informed choice of abstaining from the drink.


The Rainbow of Life

Too often, we think of the awakening path as devoid of using the mind. This is simply not true!

While it is true that meditative practices can liberate us from the worries and negative patterns of the mind, it is also true that the mind can be a powerful tool. The mind can serve us on our awakening path when we are its master.

Therefore, when we enter high vibrational states such as bliss and ecstasy, we cannot simply relinquish our logical minds and allow the ego to trick us into making self-sabotaging choices in order to bring our frequency back down into a state of separation.

When we are in joy or bliss we can remind ourselves that it will naturally happen, over days or weeks, that we will at some point dip down a bit, maybe into states such as alert friendliness, thankfulness, peace, quiet, serenity, trust, or tranquility—perhaps not as fun to experience as joy or bliss, but still wonderful states to experience.

And, equally so, we can use our minds to remember that if we are in low frequency states (depression, anxiety, fear), our ego will want to drag us down even further, and therefore will tempt us with lower frequency choices: such as using drugs/alcohol, using sexuality to numb or escape our emotions, oversleeping, binging on “comfort” foods, and consuming mindless media.

When we see how the ego simply wants to maintain its hold on our lives, it is easier to see through these patterns, and enter the light of a new consciousness.

When we avoid self-sabotaging behaviors through using the wonderful powers of our mind, the new “low” end of our frequency range can shift over time: from depression to sadness, from sadness to tension, from tension to relaxation, from relaxation to happiness.

This process takes time. Yet, it is entirely possible that a single lifetime can produce amazing change. In my life, for example, I have gone from suicidal depression as the lowest rung on my frequency range to states of lethargy and sadness as now being the lowest of what it is possible for me to experience during this phase of my life. Each year, it keeps getting better and better. Each day: better and better.

As we attune ourselves to viewing the world from a frequency perspective, to viewing our own bodies and minds as that of energy beings, things just start to make more sense. We can see our lives from a more nuanced point of view, and we can take positive action, rather than self-sabotaging reaction, and enjoy our lives, fully, in all their glorious colors.

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of September 11-17, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.


~ Your Reading ~

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You have asked for healing, my friend, and you have found it.photo_water King

The Healing card (King of Water) is an expression of strength within vulnerability.

When we say to the Universe, “I need healing”…the Universe hears our request.

This week, you are being healed. Maybe this healing comes in the form of a good friend who calls you out of the blue. Or maybe you feel called to visit an energy healer. Or maybe you discover the perfect herbal remedy that is perfect for your condition.

Whatever the case may be, whether the healing needed is manifest physically or emotionally or mentally, your healing has come. Rest easy, my friend, in the knowledge that the Universe is delivering to you the healing that you have asked for.


Trust yourself. The vibrations that are coming to you this week will help you on your path.photo_water Queen

In the Receptivity Card (Queen of Water), we are given the message that the frequencies which are wanting to filter through your crown chakra are safe to experience.

We all have a connection to the Universe, and yet there are layers and levels of connection that can be perceived.

Your connection level can be vastly increased this week, if you make the choice to let it be so.

The Queen of Water pairs perfectly with the previously discussed card, The King of Water, and shows us that we truly can let our guard down. We are safe. We can relax into ourselves and trust those around us who are ready to show us love, attention, and care.

The healing journey must include Receptivity.

The reason this card is coming up for you as a challenge for growth is that you have shown, in your past, some reluctance to trust the signals and messages the Universe has sent to you.

This is normal and natural, as our society does not tend to encourage such “psychic” knowings.

But all being “psychic” really is is simply knowing and feeling our divine connection to everything, to All.

The Receptivity card reminds us to trust, and to drop the shields that have been holding certain higher frequencies at bay. Perhaps we were raised in an orthodox religion, and so we are a bit jaded, cynical, or afraid to trust again in “unseen” forces. Or perhaps we were abused or neglected as children, and so we have built a thick wall of protection around us.

The time is now to gently release those defenses.

Allow the wisdom, love, and healing from the Universe to pour into your crown chakra—the place in your body where you can most palpably feel your connection to All.

Recommendation: This week, make some space in your life for some meditations each day. They need not be long: in fact, five minutes a day will be wonderful. Take five minutes in the morning or in the evening, and visualize that there is light pouring into the top of your head (crown chakra). You may begin to feel tingles or warmth, which is part of the awakening process. Feel these sensations and rest easy, knowing that you are receiving exactly what you need at this time.


My dear friends,

May you be blessed: in your triumphs, in your struggles, in your fears, and in your moments of bliss.

May you breathe and smile, knowing that all experiences are exactly what you need.

Sending you so much love.

If you found this reading insightful, I’d really appreciate it if you share it with your friends! Thanks so much!

Abundant Love & Blessings,

Anya ♥

I spy red! Autumn is coming!



When people think of spiritual practice, “playfulness” is not usually the first word that comes to mind. We might think that dancing on a beach or rolling around in the grass is playful, but that a spiritual practice must be the opposite: serious. I often see many people who follow a spiritual practice become very serious. If you think or practice something slightly different than what they practice, they even can become offended or angry. In a way, instead of finding spaciousness and freedom in their practice, they have put themselves in yet another box, the spiritual box.

We might begin a spiritual practice to step out of the boxes we put ourselves in during our daily life. But often we just replace that tight box of our normal daily life with a new tight box of a spiritual practice. We trade one rigid, constricting way of being for another rigid, constricting way of being. And because we call the new way spiritual practice, we may tell ourselves (and others) that this is great, this is better, this is how and who we want to be in our practice and in our life.

But in reality we practice a spiritual practice to lay bare our innate light. Many different traditions use the metaphor of light: clear light, great bright light, inner light, and light of life, just to name a few. This light can not be boxed in; it is the light of spiritual freedom and playfulness.

Look outside and see how the natural light plays through the leaves of the tree, how it glitters on the waves in the lake and how it dances around the streets. This natural light touches everything with a playfulness and with equality. No distinctions are being made, no labels are being placed, no judgments are being made by this light. Even if a big storm is brewing, the light plays and dances around and within the storm, the light dances freely in a playful manner.

Thus, we can start to see if we are practicing our spiritual practice in the truest way by looking at ourselves and seeing if we are still in our tight box, or if have we stepped out of the box and are becoming more playful. Look at the Dalai Lama, Shunryu Suzuki, Thich Nhat Hanh, Daehaeng Kun Sunim, and Mingyur Rinpoche, who have laid bare their inner light. Deep spiritual practice has not made them sober or serious; their eyes have a perpetual twinkle. They are so playful and their playful light has touched thousands of people. Their teachings are full of laughter, playfulness, and direct non-complicated wisdom. Due to having laid bare their innate playful light, they teach in a playful, joyful, and light manner. Whether we imagine them (or ourselves) rolling around in the grass or sharing wisdom in a class, the light and playfulness can shine through.



Frans Stiene has been a major influence on global research into the system of Reiki since the early 2000s. His practical understanding of the Japanese influences on the system have allowed students around the world to connect deeply with this practice. Frans is a co-founder of the International House of Reiki with Bronwen Logan (Stiene). He has also co-authored with her the critically acclaimed books The Reiki Sourcebook, The Japanese Art of Reiki, and A-Z of Reiki Pocketbook.


“Playfulness” was originally published on International House of Reiki blog.

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of September 4-10, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.




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I love this card—and I love you!photo_rainbows 10

I’m so thrilled to draw this card for you this week!

We are the World (10 of Rainbows) reveals feelings of joy, exuberance, and achievement. Feelings of prevailing peace and rightness.

All is good in the world.

This card is a celebration. It is a reflection of the fact that a sense of peace and fulfillment are currently radiating throughout your life. Yes, there may be certain goals that you are working towards, and certain things that have not yet come to fruition. However, this card indicates that you have indeed reached a major milestone in your journey.

The various colors of the people in this card represent the spectrum of human emotions that you have felt throughout your life. And wow—there have been so many! So many shades of happiness, peace, frustration, depression, worry, faith, hope, fear, sadness, confusion, bliss, and so much more.

Now, all the parts of you come together, holding hands, singing songs of gratitude.

Truly, this week your gift is a recognition of how you have worked so hard to embrace all the parts of you: the beautiful, the strange, and even the parts of you that you or society have labelled as “ugly.”

You have made such amazing strides!

This week, take time to notice how much self-love you are capable of cultivating now, in this present time in your life. Notice how you are less divided and less judgmental of yourself for feeling the various feelings you feel.

Being human is an extraordinary gift of feeling! We are not meant to be robots. On our spiritual journey, the dissolution of the ego is not about becoming neutral all the time. Rather, being a human being is about dancing and playing and adventuring into the feelings that we came here to experience. Good ones, bad ones, happy ones, and all the ones in between. (In truth, there are no “bad” ones, but that’s a subject for another time…)

You chose to come into this lifetime. You made the choice, because you knew that being human would be a wonderful. You also knew that, at times, it would feel like a crazy roller coaster. And yet you chose to come anyway. You wanted this.

This week, take the time to say some words of thanks to yourself, for you have reached a pivotal moment of fulfillment and accomplishment. Spirit wants you to know this.



I truly love this week, because I’ve drawn two of my favorite cards.photo_1 Major Arcana

In the Existence Card (I of Major Arcana), a naked figure sits atop a lily pad, apparently enraptured by the scene that plays out before her. In the sky: a shooting star and luminous galaxies spin and swirl.

This card is about the transitionary time period between being at One with the Universe before birth and the moment directly after birth.

This card reminds me of a newborn baby, when they gaze up at lights and giggle and smile at seemingly everything. It is a feeling of innocence and wonder. Awe.

Your growth for this week is to cultivate this feeling further.

Here’s an exercise to try: For one entire day, try to imagine that you are an alien and you have just been deposited from your ship onto planet Earth. You look around you in amazement: There are beings walking around, speaking a language you don’t know, and there are colors and shapes and objects which are totally new to your eyes. So, you simply observe. You simply take it all in, with each breath.

This is the mindset that Spirit is encouraging you to cultivate this week. Look at the world as a newborn does. See the world as new, as shining, as the miraculous wonderment that it truly is.

So often in our daily lives, we begin to get a feeling of boredom. We feel like we’ve seen it all and there’s nothing new under the sun. And, yet…if we make the intentional choice to cultivate a sense of wonder about our existence, then we can recapture that feeling we had when we were young…that timeless, floating feeling, where we can taste the magic in every star, hear the mystery in every word.

Blessed be, my friends.


As always, my friends, if you’d like a private reading with me, please get in touch.

Thank you so much for being the miraculous being that you are, and thank you for providing me the space in which to share my work. I love this work.

Have an awesome week!



Is that an alien? Or is that just Anya at The Space?

Sweaty Hands and Self-Love: A Story of Healing


At every stage of life, there is always learning and growth to be had.

Regardless of your particular role in society, a major step in the awakening process is to openly share and talk about your struggles with others. Even if you are a healer or a teacher or a guide to others (as I am), it is imperative that you, from time to time, share about your current challenges.

Yes, it may be scary to talk about our struggles (holy hell, I know that the story I’m about to share is super scary for me to admit!), but this kind of vulnerable sharing is what brings our shame and negative feelings out of the darkness and into the light of consciousness. By sharing openly, we heal. We transform.

By my sharing with you today about a current challenge of mine, I hope you will be inspired to share with a loved one what you are actively engaged in transforming.


When the temperature rises above 75 degrees (roughly), my hands and feet begin to sweat.

This happens because my endocrine system is imbalanced.

I am working on healing it.

Some days are worse than others. On some days, it’s simply a light dampness; on other days, the sweating is so intense that I am literally unable to type on my laptop because I fear that such a steady flow of liquid will break the machine.

For all of my life, this issue has plagued me. Not only is it often physically uncomfortable (for example, it’s difficult to do yoga sometimes, because my hands and feet are sliding all around the mat), but it is socially uncomfortable as well.

If the weather is warm that day, after a class or a workshop, when one of my students approaches me and holds out their hand for a handshake, I sometimes inwardly grimace.

Or, if I’m doing a Reiki healing session with a client, when it is time for me to touch a part of their body that is unclothed (face, neck, arms or legs), I sometimes worry that the sweat rolling off my fingertips is a distraction or an irritation for them.

Or, if I’m dating someone new…there is always this awkward moment where they reach out to hold my hand, and I want to run in the opposite direction.

Over the years, I have equated my sweaty hands with being a total weirdo. With being a loser, or a freak.

I so often feel shame when my hands come into contact with another person. (Which is surely ironic—considering the fact that I work as a hands-on healer!)

Many times, when I’ve shaken hands with someone, and they’ve literally gotten their hand soaked (it’s quite incredible, really), I’ve seen the look of mild irritation or confusion on their face, as they then wipe their hand on their pants, unsure about what they’ve just encountered. I assume they’re thinking something like, “What the hell was that?” When I see that look on their face, my heart absolutely breaks. I feel like a failure as a human being. A freak. A weirdo.



For years and years—basically, my whole life—I have actively hated and despised this aspect of my physical body. And though I deeply adore warm weather, I sometimes find myself dreading the spring months because of the seemingly inevitable social awkwardness it can bring.

But…lately…I’ve been asking myself some deep questions.

Why am I so ashamed? Why do I assume others will have negative feelings about the wetness of my hands? Why do I worry and care about what others think? What does this worry reflect about my own capacity for acceptance and self-love? And since I judge myself in this way, in what ways do I still judge others for not being “perfect”?

In so many ways, I have dropped concern for social norms and done my own thing. I’m a rebel. I am an independent, free-spirit. I don’t follow fashion norms. I wear non-matching clothes without a second thought. I don’t shave my legs; I don’t conform to gender norms. And I’ve broken just about every sexuality and relationship norm there is. In my rather conservative, frozen-in-time tiny town, I hug trees, sing, and openly perform sacred rituals in public spaces where such things are seen by the majority as outlandish, if not outright insane.

In so many aspects of my life, I do not give a crap what others think about me.

So why, in this one aspect, do I still worry about judgment and criticism from others?

After much recent reflection, I realize that the basis of my worry has to do with the fact that I’ve been stressed about presenting myself in a certain way, since my work highly depends on the impressions others have of me in order to seek my services. Basically, I’ve wanted to show myself as “perfect,” so others will be inspired to learn from me.

However, this attempt to be seen as perfect has created an impossible situation, where I am, time and time again, judging myself as less than perfect. It has set up a no-win scenario, where I am feeling like I have to hide behind a mask, rather than present my true self to others, warts and all.

Ultimately, what I realized is: Lately, my sweaty hands are prompting me to be more honest with others. I want to take all the masks off.

My sweaty hands are also helping me to realize how much more I need to love myself, unconditionally.

Do I have the courage to love myself, every single bit of me, no matter what?

Do I have the courage to claim my experience, and say to the Universe: “I love myself through my hands. I love myself through my feet. I love myself, whether sweaty or dry. I love myself, no matter what.”

And, do I have the courage to decree that I am the creator of my own experience?



I realize that I do not know when the full physical healing of my endocrine system will happen. I know that the core of the imbalance is from years of undiagnosed PTSD.

And even though I now consider myself healed from PTSD—meaning that I have successfully rewired my brain into healthier patterns so that I no longer feel victimized by my past and meaning that I no longer require that label to make progress on my awakening journey—the reality is that my endocrine system, my physical body, is still catching up.

For years I have faithfully practiced healthy eating, daily meditation, and Reiki self-healing. And the situation still persists.

I’ve been so angry with the Universe. Why haven’t I been healed yet, when I’ve been so diligent to follow the path of healing?

And this anger…this anger is now asking to be transmuted, transformed, into patience, peace, acceptance, and self-love. I need to be with myself, just as I am, unconditionally, regardless of whether the issue is ever cured in this lifetime.

I have to be okay with the possibility that my hands and feet might always sweat more than I’d like.

That’s a hard lesson to learn, but I am ready.

The time is now for a new chapter. Yesterday, I attended a social function. New friends everywhere, wanting to shake my hand, wanting to be close. And so yesterday I began to practice something new. I began to shake hands with people, and as I did so, I silently repeated the mantra: “I love myself through my hands, I love myself through my hands, I love myself through my hands…”

As I met people by looking deeply into their eyes and seeing the lovely Spirit that lies within, I realized that what counts is not the dryness or the wetness of my hands. What counts is my ability to meet them where they are at, and to see the God within.

In order to do this, I need to meet myself in just that same way. If I am blocked because I cannot love this part of me, what are the chances that I can love them in the deepest way?

I am ready for this change. I am ready to create a new reality, where I love myself fully and totally, no matter what.



My dear friends, thanks so much for listening to my story.

It’s felt scary, but also remarkably good to share with you.

And now, I invite you to share with us, in return. Let’s exchange energy and create a complete circle of healing.

What is it that you have disliked or even despised about yourself that you can now use as an opportunity to love yourself? What is it you’ve judged about yourself that you can choose to transform into an active practice and remembrance of love?

Please share with us in the comment section below.

And please know that as you share your story, you are inspiring others to do the same.

Your choice to be intentionally vulnerable is a powerful healing act, for yourself and others.


Thank you.


Story of a Miracle


I have a story to tell you. It’s about a miracle.

It was spring, six years ago. I’d been receiving Reiki treatments from a beautiful being named Barb, a woman who would later become my teacher.

The treatments were incredible. I simply couldn’t get enough. I was booking in at least one a week. Something deep inside told me that this, this beautiful Reiki, would be the way out—the way I would transform from chronic illness into everlasting peace and joy. I knew it was possible. I knew it. I knew.

Around this time, I’d been reading the book The Essence of Reiki by Dawn Mellowship and Andy Chrysostomou. I remember feeling a profound resonance with their words.

To my great surprise, when I visited Andy’s website, I found an offer for free Reiki sessions for anyone around the world. These “distant sessions” did not require physical touch nor even to be in the same room with the master.

At this point in my life, my highly-rational, overly-trained analytical brain (I was in a PhD program at the time) was just beginning to lose its stronghold. I was beginning to trust my emotions, intuition, and the whispers of heart, even if those whispers did not seem logical.

So I emailed him.

A few days later, Andy responded. He said he’d love to do a session with me, and yes indeed, the service was a gift, totally free. From just a few short sentences, I felt his deep sincerity and devotion to his practice. I felt I trusted him. Whether this “distance” method would actually work was unknown to me, and yet I was glad to be corresponding with him, with this beautiful Reiki Master halfway across the world from me, living in London.

We scheduled the treatment for an upcoming Tuesday. Andy didn’t specify the specific time he’d be sending the energy, he only said it would happen at some point during the day.

When Tuesday arrived, I was sick at home. Couch-bound. Blankets, Kleenex, juice. All in all, for that period in my life, it was a rather typical day.

I remember it was early afternoon. I remember I was making a series of phone calls. I had just hung up the phone with someone (my mother?), and was just about to press the keys to begin the next conversation.

Suddenly, I felt a hand on my back. I froze. I remember sharply inhaling. I remember looking at the clock. About 1pm.

I knew.

Instinctively, I put the phone down, and stretched out across the couch. I pulled the blankets up over my chest, and simply focused on my breathing, as I stared at the white ceiling.

I felt things re-arranging inside of me. There was a kind of swishing sensation, as if gentle feathers were sweeping away dirt and debris. A few tears came. I felt my organs relax, my skin relax, everything about my whole being relax. I felt his hands, his beautiful hands, all the way from London. And I felt warmth.

I felt like I was being wrapped in a cocoon of love.

Every now and then my mind would try to jump in and try to protest about how “crazy” this was. Yet, I was able to quickly release the thoughts and return again to simply focusing on the sensations.

The session continued for about twenty or thirty minutes. I could feel the precise moment when Andy was finished. There was this palpable feeling of departure, as if someone was leaving the room.

I remember rising from the couch, wide-eyed, and walking into the bathroom. I remember looking in the mirror at my own shocked face. How was it that I had just felt the healing hands of a man in London? How was it that such love flowed through me now? How was it that this was the world in which I now lived?

Later that evening, I received an email from Andy. He mentioned the specific time he’d done the session (yes, 1pm, of course!), and he relayed to me various intuitive impressions he’d felt about my life, my illness, and about the ways I could achieve full and lasting health.

The gratitude I felt for Andy then and the gratitude I still feel today, as I write this story, is the kind of gratitude that the recipient of a miracle feels for the person who gave the miracle.

Since then, I’ve been thinking about the concept of a miracle. We’ve all heard of miracles…but what exactly is a miracle? Since my time with Andy, and since becoming a Reiki Master myself and working with so many beautiful beings, I have felt into this question.

What I have discovered is that miracles are real.

Miracles bend time and space. A miracle is a moment where the giver of the miracle relaxes into full trust in the Universe, and allows the miracle to flow through them, fully knowing that whatever happens in that moment is for the highest good of all involved.

A miracle may or may not involve the instantaneous curing of an illness, but it always always involves a moment of magic, a moment outside of the limits of the human mind, where some truth is revealed or we begin to taste the infinite possibilities of the Universe.

And, yes, miracles often involve profound moments of physical healing.

I would not be here on this planet now if it were not for Reiki.

On that fateful day in spring, six years ago, a beautiful being named Andy Chrysostomou made a miracle for me. It happened; it was real; it will forever be.

And that gratitude…the gratitude that I felt and feel for Andy, I now have the joy of seeing that gratitude in the faces of those who come to me. When my clients lay on the table before me, I lift my hands in joyful gratitude, simply dissolving my ego and allowing myself to be a clear channel of love, allowing the Universe to shape miracles through my hands.

And, after the session, when I see added light in their eyes, I know it is the light of their own love. I know that what they feel and see in me is simply their own magic.

The real magic is that the power lies inside of us. Every single one of us.

I have no special gifts or powers, and neither did Andy. All we did and do is simply trust in the Universe, and surrender to the infinite powers greater than each of us. All we did and do is yes.

This is something incredibly easy to talk about, but it takes a special kind of courage to enact.

Are you ready? Are you ready to let go of everything you’ve been told, and trust?

It doesn’t matter whether you practice Reiki or some other modality. The main point is that you surrender your small self, the ego mind, the logical rational brain, and you say:

Yes, I am ready for a miracle. I am worthy of love, and I am ready for the magic of the new. Let a miracle pour forth unto me this day. I am ready.



Tarot for the Soul ~ week of August 28-September 3, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.





photo_clouds AceThe Consciousness Card (Ace of Clouds) is an amazing card. It is the Universe tapping you on the shoulder and saying, “Hello, beautiful! Great job—you’ve come a long way!”

This card is all about taking stock, taking time to reflect on how much we’ve grown through past challenges.

Indeed, this card is a moment of joyful pause. A moment of triumph and parade.

We stand in a place of awe, gazing back at our own evolution.

You are a conscious, awake, and aware being, shining your light for others. Helping the planet to awaken.

Recommendation: Take a bit of space for yourself this week to cultivate gratitude for how far you’ve come on your journey. Look back at some photographs of yourself from one year ago, five years ago, and then ten years ago. Pull out your journal and freewrite some responses to the following prompts. What has happened in one year? What have you learned? If you were to have a conversation with yourself of five years ago, what would you tell you? What secrets would you share? How would your self of ten years ago react to seeing who you are today?



You want to know how can you become even more amazing, even more conscious than you are today? The answer is:

Let go of the Guilt (8 of Clouds).photo_clouds 8

Guilt is like a poison. It rots our internal organs. It destroys our peace and it brings our vibration down.

What are you guilty about? What aspect of your life do you judge as “wrong” or “bad”? Are there people or environments in your life who trigger feelings of guilt?

Being triggered into guilt (or any other lower vibration) is always always a choice. There is always a moment where we can breathe and choose to feel our Holy, Divine Presence. There is always a moment where we can choose to tap into the Infinite Source of our Being. It’s a choice. It’s a space that’s always there.

This card has been drawn because there is guilt lingering in your energetic field. This guilt is old: it’s from the past. Let it go.

Instead of guilt, how about gratitude?

Gratitude comes from the Latin gratus, meaning “pleasing.” Even if what happens in your daily life doesn’t always please you, even if it’s not what you prayed to the Universe to manifest…can you still feel the deeper truth that what is, ultimately, most pleasing is exactly what is happening?

Your highest growth depends upon a surrender to exactly what this moment is.

Let go of the guilt.

Move into yes. Be in accord with whatever is happening. Be the river that flows.

If we can do that, if we can surrender to the river of life, then a deep gratitude fills our hearts, and there can be absolutely no room for guilt.


Dear ones,

Thank you so much for joining me on these weekly Tarot adventures!

If you’ve found these readings beneficial in your life, I humbly ask you to support my work. As you know, I have devoted my life to the uplift of humanity. As such, I have chosen not to work a typical 9-5 job, so that my entire creative energies are able to pour into the gifts that I so deeply want to share with you.

Each day, I gratefully receive the support of generous friends like you, and, in turn, send those blessings back out into the world. It’s a never-ending cycle of love and abundance.

Can you feel it?

Would you be willing to share the cost of a cup of coffee ($2) with me today?




Thanks so much for heeding the call, and sharing your abundance with me, as we work toward the more beautiful world that our hearts know is possible.

Blessings and so much love,

Anya Light ♥


Anya and friends, at a recent Celebrating the Divine Feminine empowerment gathering in Gibsonburg, Ohio


How to Get a Good Psychic Reading


During my nearly five years working as a psychic medium and tarot reader, I’ve come across clients from virtually every background—from Baptists to Catholics, Muslims to atheists, and many more.

Despite differences in color, creed, or deities, one commonality remains amongst all individuals who sit at my table. Life is hard, and we as humans want answers when things happen that we can’t understand.

If you are like so many others who are seeking answers, and want a fantastic psychic reading, check out these tips to help you get the most out of your reading.


1.  Getting the reading you want begins before you ever sit down in front of a reader.

Take the time to really consider why you are seeking advice. Are you unsure about the possibility of a career change? Would you like to find out what the cards say about an impending move? A new relationship? These are all great reasons for seeking a reading.

Some not-so-great reasons for seeking a reading is to want to be given the winning lottery numbers or to know which stocks are going to increase in value. Simply put: Readers won’t give you that kind of information because they desire to use their abilities for deeper purposes for your soul’s evolution and the flowering of your life purpose.

If your first instinct is to ask about winning lottery numbers, take some time to reflect on why you want to win the lottery. Are you feeling financially insecure? If so, I encourage you to create a question to ask your reader, such as, “How can I manifest more financial abundance?”


2.  Decide what type of reading you need.

Typically, a tarot reading is one in which the reader can discuss many areas of life from career and health, to home and family. Tarot cards are used as a tool to enable the client and reader to visually see the story of the reading unfold. If it is future, past, or present information you seek, then a tarot reading may be just what you need. Other types of readings exist, too, such as: angel oracle cards, astrology, crystal ball, and many, many more. Do your research.


3.  Remember that your reader is not a therapist.

Psychologists and therapists have fancy letters behind their name and many years of professional training to know how to deal with the human mind in all its beautifully complex workings. While ideally you want a well-rounded reader who can speak on a broad number of topics and has legitimate experience, they will never be a therapist.

Therefore, resist the urge to spill all your worldly problems on to the reader; instead, allow the reader to tell you what he or she is seeing. By doing so, you are giving the reading the space to unfold naturally. When we knowingly or unknowingly give information to a reader, it can cause perceptions to change and a greater possibility for judgment or even a cold reading to occur. (A cold reading is one in which the reader uses previously-gleaned information to assist with the reading rather than using the cards and their psychic abilities.)


4.  Ask questions when appropriate.

When I read, I like to start with as little information as possible. It ensures me that I am going in free from judgment, preconceived notions, and biases, while maintaining professional integrity.

I encourage my clients to pick one area to focus on first, such as home, money, health, career, etc. When one area is finished, I move on to another area unless my client has questions. Whether you are new to readings or not, I encourage you as a client to really listen and let your reading experience unfold as it will.

Questions are great, yes, but what I love even more is when a client is paying attention. When you really listen to a reading, then the questions you have can be asked when appropriate, not simply when there is a moment of silence.


5.  Take notes.

From college lectures to the board room, people everywhere jot down important information. Why should it be any different during your reading? In my personal experience, I love when clients write notes while I read. Firstly, it forces me to slow down and just take one card at a time (I can’t talk a million miles an hour and expect my client to write it all down). Secondly, notes help the client to really see what is important in the reading.

As a client, you may wish to discuss your most recent break-up; yet, as your reading progresses, and you are taking notes, you may see that the cards are moving in an entirely different direction. Having a tangible set of notes in front of you may also illuminate patterns in the cards or even in how things are happening in life.

Last but certainly not least, taking notes helps the client to remember what was said during the reading. When excitement runs high we often forget what was said or neglect to ask an important question.


…So, where do you go from here? Go and get a reading of course! Enjoy!

If this article has sparked any questions for you, please leave me a comment! I’d love to hear from you!




Laura White is an intuitive practitioner who enjoys studying herbalism and aromatherapy in her spare time. She has worked for the last five years as a tarot reader, psychic medium and intuitive consultant. Her knowledge of many spiritual paths, psychology, and various metaphysical topics provides depth and scope to her readings. To schedule a reading, email her at: Sacredpathways@icloud.com. You can also follow her on Twitter at: @sacredintuition