A Letter to the Wayshowers

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Dear Wayshowers,

The ancients spoke of this time. A time of great remembrance.

Many advanced souls have been drawn back to this planet at this time.

We do this for the purpose of being a wayshower for others. Of helping people remember the timeless, eternal Truth.

You have already done this.

Allow me to repeat: You have already done this.

Indeed, you have already awakened, in many past lifetimes. You have already lived in a state of pure bliss and perfection in other times, on other planets, in other dimensions. You have assisted countless beings in the ascension process.

And now you are here again. Back again, doing the same work, here on Earth. Why? Because it’s great fun! And a huge challenge! Helping a planet awaken is one of the greatest thrill rides known in the cosmos.

When you are born, you begin your life with a sense of forgetfulness about the Truth of your being. You have amnesia to who you truly are.

Therefore, for many years, you have been living in extreme self-doubt. You have even allowed yourself to believe you have been the “victim” of other people. Many of you have acquired some very intense battle wounds along the way.

However, here’s the good news. I’m here to remind you today of the uplifting truth: You have already done this! You have already awakened, many many times. You are aware of the process, the subtle nuances inherent in rising up out of darkness and into the light.

The mind makes all things so. Each person creates the story of how the Universe works. And when souls come together to tell the same story, things are accelerated.

Have no fear. This lifetime is very special. You have wisdom locked inside of you. You only have to find the keys.

Finding the keys is what drew you to this letter, and what draws you to the teachers and mentors who can help.

Pray. Ask the Great Spirit, Goddess, God (whatever you want to call it) to help you unlock the great wisdom within you.

Pray. Ask for help. Ask to be drawn to an enlightened teacher.

Pray. Speak to the very cells of your body, asking them to help you in this awakening process. Ask them to heal, so that you can be clear and vibrant.

Pray. Ask the Divine Force to transform and uplift all the people you encounter.

Dear friends, pray.

Pray that your awakening awakens others. Pray that your love heals the planet.

Go forth, in your full regal bearing, knowing that you are an advanced soul, with advanced wisdom to share. Awaken further!

When things get difficult, remember that you already have a PhD in ascension and it only seems like you are back in high school, fretting over an algebra problem. The truth is: you have done this work before, and you have chosen to repeat the process of awakening in this time, on this planet, right now, when things do seem very dark.

But the darkness is an illusion.

Remember that enlightenment is here, now. You are here now.

Take a breath.

Okay, take another breath.

Smile.

You’ve got this.

 

Blessings to you all,

Anya Light

Meditation is a Practice of Dying

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Meditation is a practice of dying.

When we close our eyes to meditate, we drop our lives. We drop our names, our wants, our goals, our to do lists. We drop relationships, work, play; we drop it all. We drop.

When we sit down on a cushion to meditate, we chart a bold new path—into the unknown.

Meditation is not simply a way to relax or de-stress (although these reasons may have initially driven us to the practice); rather, meditation is a way to meet and experience Divinity.

Whether we were raised in a religious family or not, the path to Divinity, to Source, to God, to All That Is (whatever term you want to call it is fine; the label does not matter), is a path that comes when we have grown weary of the material world’s false promises. Maybe we have tasted fame, fortune, success, or even deep love in a marriage. And yet…and yet…there is this thing inside, this craving that is never fully satisfied.

What is this thing? This thing is the longing for God.

When we sit down to meditate, we say goodbye to our lives as they have been, and we invite the unknown. We invite Divinity to enter us.

When we sit down to meditate, we drop it all, for a few minutes, and we enter into a state where the mind is allowed to dissolve.

People fear death, because it is the conclusion of the mind’s accumulation of facts and figures of one particular lifetime. People tend to believe that what the mind has stored, all the facts and figures and stories and moods and memories is what makes up a “life.” Thus, when the mind ends at the time of death, people are often terrified. What happens when we lose the mind and the body that has defined our very existence? Is there life after life? Do we just cease to be? Indeed, the death process is terrifying to most people.

Ultimately, people fear meditation and are reluctant to try it because they fear death.

Death is an unravelling of the mind.

Meditation is also an unravelling of the mind.

Even though meditation is not yet mainstream on our planet, more and more people are waking up to the need for meditation in their daily lives. They are starting small: with five minutes every day, and then gradually devoting more and more time to the practice. They are beginning to taste grand moments of peace, and even happiness or bliss.

Meditation is the practice of dying. We die to all that we have known and all that we thought was real. We put down our identities, and we allow ourselves to be swept into the unknown.

Through this brave act of dying, day after day, we move into the light. We move towards the purest kind of freedom. It is the freedom of pure Consciousness—the knowing, the experience, the absolute certainty that all is One. That there is, in fact, no death at all.

A Letter of Encouragement to my Healer Friends

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Dear loved ones,

The truth about healing is that not everyone wants to heal. The truth about healing is that not everyone is ready.

It takes a super courageous soul to look within and say “Maybe the way I’ve been doing it is not the best way.” It takes a humble soul to accept an extended hand and say, “Please guide me; I’m lost.” It takes a person of the most radical nature to say, “I’m ready for a change.”

Change is hard; change is difficult. Many people you know, including many people on spiritual paths, have reached a certain level of evolvement and then stopped. They are content to stay at that level. For them, they believe that where they are at is the highest they can go. For them, there is no higher wisdom possible—they have closed themselves off to the possibility of more.

If someone has stopped, and they don’t even realize that they’ve stopped (this is called “denial”), then they will not want your healing assistance. They will not desire your encouragement to go further.

This is a hard lesson, I know! I’ve been learning it lately, and it is perhaps the most challenging lesson I’ve ever encountered. There is someone in my life whom I love dearly who has been stuck in a plateau of cynicism, isolation, and frustration for many years, but who refuses to accept my sincere offers of help. I offer her free Reiki sessions, hugs, and words of guidance—yet she is not truly open to any of them. She does not want the wisdom I have to share. She does not want healing. She does not want to see within herself all the ways she could grow. She is not ready.

Dear healer friends, you cannot force someone to heal. You may love someone with every ounce of your being, and put tremendous efforts into offering assistance, but that person may refuse every moment of it.

Yet, know this: You are not a failure! What is happening is that you are learning a deep lesson. The lesson of acceptance. Every human being is on their own journey. It may not be in this lifetime that they are ready to do the deep healing work that you yourself have done. For the path of a healer, a guide, a lightworker and wayshower of humanity, is not an easy path! It is perhaps the most challenging of all—because we have to face our “yucky stuff” in the process, head-on. What courage! What intensity! Not every soul is meant for this.

My friends, the truth about healing is that not everyone is ready to heal. Not everyone wants your help.

The truth is, the best way to help someone you love who is resistant to your efforts is by respecting their choice to be exactly where they are. Even if your heart is breaking by watching someone you love refuse the healing support you offer, allow your heart to break. Feel it break and feel it break and feel it break some more.

Through the pain of your broken heart, your ego dissolves further, and then, paradoxically, more love can shine through.

Through the pain, you find redemption in the light. You leave all projections of how things “should be” and you enter the present moment of now…where everyone you love, and every single being that exists, is absolutely perfect. Right now. Now. Now…

 

Loving All of You Forever,

Anya Light ♥

The Way you are Waking Up is Perfect

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This is an unedited letter from The Light Collective,

a group of benevolent beings channeled by Anya Light

 

Dear lightworkers & wayshowers,

We come forth in this letter, and we speak to you. We are a collection of your higher self and the higher selves of many others. We are things that cannot be accurately translated into your language. Perhaps the closest word might be “guides.” We are guides. And we speak to you now.

We want to tell you we have great compassion for you at this time. We know that life right now seems like a crazy roller coaster. You find yourself doubting and you find yourself in bliss.

On some days, you are up, way up, feeling the love pour from every pore of every human you encounter, from every leaf of every plant, and from every bird who soars into view.

And then there are other days, when you feel like a fraud. You are nervous to be around your family or old friends, because their unconsciousness triggers the part of you that is not yet settled in your enlightenment. On these days, you are somewhat guarded in public, still keeping that proverbial eye out for the pickpocket, for the thief, for the person who will “hurt” you.

This is a normal part of the process. Not every human wakes up in the instantaneous way that is so often mythologized and glorified. Sure, a few rare ones have woken up quickly, overnight, but our tendency to long for that type of awakening only stems from our longing to rapidly flee from the suffering that hurts so much.

Please know that your periodic dips into suffering (which, you must admit, are not nearly as bleak as they used to be) has a useful purpose. Every thing that happens in Creation has a useful purpose. Nothing is wasted; all parts are integral. In order to help humanity, in order to help evolve consciousness during this time of transition on the planet, it is necessary that during this time you fluctuate back into suffering (the feeling of separateness, disconnection with the Whole) in order to gather information about how that exactly feels, having the contrast of the enlightened state to compare it with. You lived as numb robot for much of your life, trying to dull away the pain of your conditioned upbringing through alcohol, drugs, casual sex, mindless entertainment, endless running and distraction. You could not bear the pain in your body. You ran. You hid.

And then the time came when there was a break from the ceaseless chatter of your mind and everything became still. The clouds broke and the sun emerged. The time for the ceaseless pain was no more, and there was relief.

Dear lightworker, you are miles away from that first taste of enlightenment. Yet, you still suffer.

We are here to tell you that this is okay. It is part of the plan. Embrace that this part of the journey is going to feel a bit rocky, a bit crazy sometimes. Once you have broken through the veil permanently, you will look back at this part of your journey with utter amazement and gratitude. For it is through acquainting yourself with the suffering while still partly conscious of Unity Consciousness that brings the deep insight and the teachings. There are those teachers who woke up as children, or those who woke up overnight. They have their teachings. You have yours; yours are different.

Without this half-way phase, there would be no way to translate the message to others who will be on a similar path to you. Dear soul, there are similar paths, similar soul-streams. You are preparing yourself and helping those who are in the similar stream. You will speak to those who know or will know of what you speak. The rest you cannot speak to; it is not meant to be. They have their own teachers.

The way you are waking up is perfect.

If you simply popped from suffering straight into full awareness, what could you teach? You could only teach the mysterious story. Many have taught that story already. What is new is the story of waking up gradually. Waking up while in the midst of profound challenge.

Many of you are not in monasteries. Many of you are not in peaceful ashrams or in spiritual communities where you have the leisure to focus on your breath all day. Most of you are out there, in the world, in the nitty gritty of life, earning paychecks and raising children and going to grocery stores and living in cities breathing in polluted air. You lack the grass under your feet and you lack a spiritual teacher by your side.

Indeed, this is a hard path. One of the most challenging.

You live daily amidst great suffering—great suffering by those who do not even know they suffer!

It may be tempting sometimes to feel victimized by your circumstances and to think of this as a burden. We encourage you to reframe your situation as your great gift. It is a gift from self to self. It is a mission like no other.

You are a piece of Source; Source lives within you, directing you on this path that you are on. We cannot emphasize enough the reassurance that it is not your job to flee from this “mundane” life to some “more spiritual” place. Stay where you are. Be who you are. Do not try to arrange the details of your life so they are more comfortable. Run, headfirst, into the meat of this life, of where you are now, of the circumstances you are presented with.

When you are in a park, hug a tree. Allow others to watch you do this. When you are in a grocery store, tell the cashier she has a beautiful voice or he is doing a fine job. When someone asks you how you are, you can reply, “This life is a blessing.” Be you. Be bold. Be the one who inspires. Speak the truth you know within your heart. Do not allow the unconsciousness of others bring your energy down, but simply allow their unconsciousness to grow strength in you, as you practice directing your love in their direction.

If you are constantly surrounded by difficult, stubborn, depressed, angry characters at work or even in your home, make each moment in their presence a moment of service. No words even need to be spoken. Simply open and consciously maintain yourself as a pure channel of light, needing nothing from them, absorbed in your own radiance, bathed in light, moving slowly, moving so that the love can pour into you and then also reflect out from you, magnified a million times by your heart. Feel the Christ within you grow as you are around them. They are, in effect, helping shape you to be the teacher you are coming to be. Without their suffering, you could not know the healing power of graceful compassion within you. Do you not see how everything has its place, its purpose?

Do you not see how the waking up process is guaranteed?

You have crossed the threshold of 2012, and now you walk among the multitudes, learning to be the master.

When you are drawn to stories about Jesus, about the Buddha, about other awakened ones, do you think this is a coincidence? We want you to know it is like who attracts like. Many years ago it was rare to be a master. Now, you are among much company.

Your heart is a powerful instrument. Do not underestimate it. Your heart has the power to cleanse the suffering of those around you.

If you fall back into suffering for hours, days, or even weeks at a time, know that this is not a fault or a failing. You are still a lightworker—and, in fact, perhaps this is the best time of all for you to reflect upon this soul title…for you know on some core level you signed up for exactly this. You chose to the one who goes to hell, to extend a hand to those who suffer. And you can extend that hand because you know what it is like to be in hell. You know the way of no-hope, so you can give hope.

Many of the people around you do not know they suffer. Wait, patiently, until there is a moment when you can speak to offer insight, to offer knowledge. But, until then, until there is that perfect opening, no words need be spoken. Your peaceful presence, your action, is all that is needed. If someone is hungry, feed them. If someone needs a hug, hug them. If someone is crying, smile and touch their hand. These seem to be such simple things, yet they are the difference between life and death, between heaven and hell.

You are the sunshine, breaking free from the clouds. You are the morning, after a long winter’s night. You are what you came to be. You are.

We see you. We appreciate you. We speak to you, in our chorus of voices, whispering to you, watching over you. Know that angels attend you in every moment and that your life is blessed.

You will, friend, in this lifetime, reach that state of abiding awakeness you seek. You will. Eventually the wave will come, and it will take you fully. The more you doubt this, the longer you will have to wait for it. So simply trust that it is coming. You shall be delivered from this roller-coaster-time. And once you have been freed, you will look back with gratitude, your heart now filled with empathic teachings that could have come no other way.

Every path is perfect. Every choice is right. Every day is a chance to live your most brightest light and most surest truth.

Go forward on this path, light worker, being of light, friend of humanity, angel in disguise, and do the job you came here to do. Forgive yourself on your “bad” days. Trust, have faith, and love with every ounce of your being!

 

Endless Blessings,

The Light Collective

 

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of Sept 18-Sept 24, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.


 

~ YOUR READING ~

 

This week is going to be a little different, dear friends.

As you know, I normally pull cards and interpret them for you.

What I’d like to invite you to do this week is to use your own powers of intuition to interpret the cards. Don’t worry—I will guide you.

Yes, you can do this!

So, I have drawn two cards, as usual, representing your gifts and growth opportunities for the week. Instead of offering direct interpretations for you, I will instead offer you some guiding questions. You may want to reflect on these questions by writing in your journal, or perhaps speak the answers out loud. Whatever ways you choose to work with the questions, you will soon clearly understand the significance of the cards and what they mean for your life.

One important tip about card interpretation: Don’t rush it. Give yourself adequate space for this exploration. At least twenty minutes is needed, or possibly more. Turn off your phone; unhook from social media, play some soothing meditation music, and light a candle or burn some incense. Create a sacred space for yourself. This helps unwind the busy nervous system, so we can more easily tap into our intuition.

Indeed, our intuition works best when we are relaxed.

As you breathe and relax, just gently play with the questions. What are the cards saying? What are you saying? Remember that there are no right or wrong answers. Every answer that pops into your head is exactly the Divine Guidance that will help you on your path. Don’t overthink it; just let it flow.

Dear friends, it is so important for you to understand that you can do what I do. Reading cards is not some “special” gift exclusive to some. No! Reading cards and other intuitive arts are simply that: arts. They are creative endeavors, available to all. Yes, it does take a bit of time and effort to feel comfortable in any art—but once we make the commitment to begin our training and explore ourselves through our intuitive sight…then, the world begins to open up its grand magic as never before.

And now…without further adieu, here are your cards!

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GIFTS:

Your gifts for this week are represented by the Thunderbolt (XVI of Major Arcana).photo_16 Major Arcana

Here are some questions to ponder…

What do fire and lightning have in common? Where is the fire located, and why? Where is the lightning striking, and why? Who is the large shaded figure in the background of the card? Is this figure floating or is she/he resting on the ground? How would you characterize the emotional state of the two naked figures who are falling? How do the colors in the card make you feel? How would you describe the movement, action, or story of the card?

As you discern the symbols in this card, remember that gifts are not often what they appear. Often, gifts can be shrouded in mystery and paradox.

How does the Thunderbolt speak to you today? What does it whisper about your week ahead?

GROWTH:

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Here are some questions to ponder…

What emotions are brought up within you as you gaze at the card? What are the facial expressions of these two Japanese characters? Why are they touching pinkies? What kinds of clothing and objects are adorning their bodies? Would you want to share a cup of tea with these two men—why or why not? What are the colors of the card, and how do the colors relate to what they are doing? What situation or relationship in your life is represented by this card? What does it mean to compromise? What does it mean to agree? What is truth? How would you describe the movement, action, or story of this card?

How does the Compromise card speak to you in this moment? What truths is it trying to reveal and help you understand regarding your week ahead?

What challenges is the Compromise card attempting to forewarn you of?

In what ways will you meet those challenges? What intentions will you set?


 

Dearest friends,

I hope you’ve enjoyed interpreting your cards for this week.

Please know that I am available to you via Skype or phone for a private tutorial in how to read cards and strengthen your intuition. If you feel that little tingle of excitement as you read these words, then I encourage you to follow your heart and get in touch with me today!

Blessings & Eternal Radiant Light,

Anya ♥

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Transcending Self-Sabotage: A Frequency Perspective

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You’ve probably heard of self-sabotage.

Self-sabotage is when we find ourselves acting in ways that are totally contrary to what we have learned. In other words, we “know better”—and yet we do it anyway.

Why do we do this?

Today I’d like to talk with you about self-sabotage in a different way, a way you’ve probably never heard before.

I’d like to explain self-sabotage from an energetic perspective. From the perspective of frequency.

 

What are Frequencies?

In our daily lives, we exist in a constantly fluctuating range of energetic frequencies. The range always exists, meaning that there is always going to be the lowest rung on the ladder that we could possibly feel on any given day at that particular stage in our life, and, conversely, there is always going to be the highest rung that we could possibly feel given that particular stage of our life.

As time passes, what constitutes our typical range will change. What you are capable of experiencing changes. Over the years, your highs will get even higher. And as time passes, your lows will not be as low as they once were.

Simply put, frequencies are emotions. Emotions are frequencies. They are one and the same.

An emotion is simply a frequency interpreted by the body-mind. So, for example, sadness and depression could be characterized as a low frequency, while the emotions of happiness and joy could be characterized as a high frequency. Sensations in the body such as heaviness and sluggishness could be characterized as low frequency, while sensations such as lightness and flexibility could be characterized as high frequency.

If you feel like you’re slugging through thick mud, you are in low frequency. If you feel like your body is vibrating or floating, then you are in high frequency.

What we experience on any given day is going to fluctuate, from hour to hour, even sometimes from minute to minute. This fluctuation is a normal part of being alive in a body. Even the great enlightened sages and teachers fluctuate: they sometimes feel neutrality, calm, joy, bliss, sleepiness, peace, and sometimes they even feel sadness. We all fluctuate. To fluctuate in frequency is to be human.

 

The Pattern of Self-sabotage

If we can view emotions and sensations as existing in an ever-shifting range of frequencies, then we can understand self-sabotage and how to gently dissolve this pattern out of our existence.

Self-sabotage is when we engage in an action or behavior that lowers our frequency. It is often an addictive or compulsive behavior. Often, after we self-sabotage, we feel like we’ve just woken up out of a bad dream. There’s this hazy, surreal quality to the whole action of self-sabotage, and when we come out of it, we are left scratching our heads, thinking, “Why in the world did I do that?

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on self-sabotage in my own life.

I recently had a gathering at my home, where twenty incredible friends gathered to partake in delicious nutritious food together, sing magical songs, meditate, fire-spin, and participate in a group healing session. It was amazing, out-of-this-world! Many who participated in the event commented that it was the highest they’ve ever felt without using drugs.

I too left the event with a feeling of elation. The following day, I felt I was walking on a cloud. All of life made sense, and everyone I encountered looked as beautiful as the Buddha. There was a shine to everything, a glow.

Two days later, however, I found myself reaching for some chocolate. As I am recovering from adrenal fatigue syndrome, I know that it is best to avoid caffeine and sugar in my diet. I have learned, over and over, that what my body needs most is total peace and calm—not stimulation. There is not a shred of doubt in my mind that chocolate has negative consequences for my body.

And yet, I ate the chocolate. I ate a lot of chocolate. You could say I totally binged on chocolate.

As you might imagine, the next few days were hell. The caffeine interrupted my sleep patterns, and I was left a jittery, exhausted mess.

Why in the world did I do that to myself? Why did I make that lousy choice? At the outset, this seemed like a complicated inquiry for me to undertake. Yet, after reflecting and meditating, I realized that the answer was quite simple.

The answers to my questions are most easily revealed through an energetic perspective.

Let’s say you are flying high, like I was just after getting together with my friends… perhaps you just got a promotion at work, or perhaps you have just made love to your sweetie for the first time. Whatever the case, you are experiencing a higher rung on the ladder of your own personal frequency range. You are flying; you are free; perhaps you even feel weightless. You feel the world is vibrating to the beat of your own joyful heart, and you hope that you will somehow stay in this ecstasy forever.

But then the ego comes in. The ego doesn’t understand what joy feels like; the ego doesn’t understand what bliss feels like. The ego only knows separation and pain, and so that is what it tries to reinforce.

The ego decides, then, that the only thing it can do is to reassert yourself is to feed your mind doubts, worries, or lies.

When I reached for chocolate on that fateful day, I had the idea in my mind that maybe I would feel even better than I already did by eating the chocolate.

Is that crazy? Well, yes, of course—but that is exactly how the ego operates! The ego feeds us crazy ideas in order to re-establish itself and its own experience (pain, suffering, separation).

Based upon my years of experience as a person recovering from adrenal fatigue, I had learned without a shadow of a doubt that caffeine is one of the worst poisons I can put into my body. I knew this! And…yet…I believed the idea that the ego fed me: that if I ate the chocolate, I would be flying even higher than I was before.

 

Transcending the Pattern

Why did I believe the lie that the ego told me?

Well, there was clearly some subconscious things happening that I was unaware of. What I was experiencing, the day after the gathering of friends, was bliss. Total ecstasy. In Western culture, the state of bliss is not recognized as culturally acceptable behavior. There is, in fact, a deep suspicion of bliss. Bliss is seen as craziness, madness, as out-of-bounds from normal social existence.

I was in bliss—meaning, I was One with all. I was not concerned with paying my bills, I was not concerned with clocks and calendars. I remember walking around my neighborhood the day after the event, and seeing every stone, every blade of grass, and every person walking their dog as a piece of my own soul. I felt intimately connected to everyone and everything I saw. I felt deep love and compassion. This was bliss. This was what the great sages feel in every moment. This was enlightenment. This was it. I was it.

And then my ego totally freaked out. And, actually, justifiably so—because it felt like it was dying! It indeed was losing its grip on my reality.

The ego came in, reminding me (on a subconscious level) about the mandate against bliss in our culture. It came in, warning me that this high frequency might obliterate all the things in my life that I take for granted: maybe if I stayed in this state long enough, I would lose all my friends? Or maybe I would lose my work, my home? Maybe if I stayed in this state, my body might dissolve altogether or spontaneously combust?

All these worries and thoughts were fed to me, by my ego, on a subconscious level. I took them in. And then on, a conscious level, this thought appeared in my mind: If you eat chocolate, you might feel even more awesome than you already do.

The reality of living in a body in a Universe composed of energy is that energy fluctuates. After a few days, or perhaps at most a few weeks, my frequency, after my friendship gathering, would have dipped a bit lower as the days passed. It would have been normal, natural, and quite alright for me to dip down out of bliss, and perhaps into mid-range frequencies: feelings such as optimism, tenderness, safety, centeredness, stillness, peace, or mellow calm. That would have been normal, and to be expected.

And, yet, my self-sabotaging behavior caused me to quickly plummet to much much lower states such as anxiety and sadness.

If we want to understand why we engage in self-sabotage, we must understand it from the perspective of energy, of frequency. The ego wants to knock us down from high-frequency states—because it fears the dissolution of its own existence—by introducing erroneous logic into our minds. Because we are so high, so open and trusting of ourselves, then, during these high frequency states (where we see the perfection in everything, the love in all), we then can sometimes fail to use logic in making decisions. It is as if the ego knows we are liable to say “yes” to anything, because we feel so good. We trust. And, yet, this trust without logic will ultimately be our downfall, as we engage in self-sabotaging behavior.

Yes, it is good to trust and to surrender to the Universe, but it is also imperative that we continue to use logic and rationality when faced with certain choices in our lives. For example, if we are healing from alcohol abuse, then, whilst in a state of bliss, the ego might arise and whisper: “It won’t hurt to have a drink now. I can handle it; I won’t become addicted again.” If a thought like this occurs to us, we can simply note that the thought is in reference to a pattern of addiction. A warning flag can then go up in our mind. With loving attention, we can review the past of our lives, review our intentions for the future, and make the informed choice of abstaining from the drink.

 

The Rainbow of Life

Too often, we think of the awakening path as devoid of using the mind. This is simply not true!

While it is true that meditative practices can liberate us from the worries and negative patterns of the mind, it is also true that the mind can be a powerful tool. The mind can serve us on our awakening path when we are its master.

Therefore, when we enter high vibrational states such as bliss and ecstasy, we cannot simply relinquish our logical minds and allow the ego to trick us into making self-sabotaging choices in order to bring our frequency back down into a state of separation.

When we are in joy or bliss we can remind ourselves that it will naturally happen, over days or weeks, that we will at some point dip down a bit, maybe into states such as alert friendliness, thankfulness, peace, quiet, serenity, trust, or tranquility—perhaps not as fun to experience as joy or bliss, but still wonderful states to experience.

And, equally so, we can use our minds to remember that if we are in low frequency states (depression, anxiety, fear), our ego will want to drag us down even further, and therefore will tempt us with lower frequency choices: such as using drugs/alcohol, using sexuality to numb or escape our emotions, oversleeping, binging on “comfort” foods, and consuming mindless media.

When we see how the ego simply wants to maintain its hold on our lives, it is easier to see through these patterns, and enter the light of a new consciousness.

When we avoid self-sabotaging behaviors through using the wonderful powers of our mind, the new “low” end of our frequency range can shift over time: from depression to sadness, from sadness to tension, from tension to relaxation, from relaxation to happiness.

This process takes time. Yet, it is entirely possible that a single lifetime can produce amazing change. In my life, for example, I have gone from suicidal depression as the lowest rung on my frequency range to states of lethargy and sadness as now being the lowest of what it is possible for me to experience during this phase of my life. Each year, it keeps getting better and better. Each day: better and better.

As we attune ourselves to viewing the world from a frequency perspective, to viewing our own bodies and minds as that of energy beings, things just start to make more sense. We can see our lives from a more nuanced point of view, and we can take positive action, rather than self-sabotaging reaction, and enjoy our lives, fully, in all their glorious colors.

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of September 11-17, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.


 

~ Your Reading ~

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GIFTS:

You have asked for healing, my friend, and you have found it.photo_water King

The Healing card (King of Water) is an expression of strength within vulnerability.

When we say to the Universe, “I need healing”…the Universe hears our request.

This week, you are being healed. Maybe this healing comes in the form of a good friend who calls you out of the blue. Or maybe you feel called to visit an energy healer. Or maybe you discover the perfect herbal remedy that is perfect for your condition.

Whatever the case may be, whether the healing needed is manifest physically or emotionally or mentally, your healing has come. Rest easy, my friend, in the knowledge that the Universe is delivering to you the healing that you have asked for.

GROWTH:

Trust yourself. The vibrations that are coming to you this week will help you on your path.photo_water Queen

In the Receptivity Card (Queen of Water), we are given the message that the frequencies which are wanting to filter through your crown chakra are safe to experience.

We all have a connection to the Universe, and yet there are layers and levels of connection that can be perceived.

Your connection level can be vastly increased this week, if you make the choice to let it be so.

The Queen of Water pairs perfectly with the previously discussed card, The King of Water, and shows us that we truly can let our guard down. We are safe. We can relax into ourselves and trust those around us who are ready to show us love, attention, and care.

The healing journey must include Receptivity.

The reason this card is coming up for you as a challenge for growth is that you have shown, in your past, some reluctance to trust the signals and messages the Universe has sent to you.

This is normal and natural, as our society does not tend to encourage such “psychic” knowings.

But all being “psychic” really is is simply knowing and feeling our divine connection to everything, to All.

The Receptivity card reminds us to trust, and to drop the shields that have been holding certain higher frequencies at bay. Perhaps we were raised in an orthodox religion, and so we are a bit jaded, cynical, or afraid to trust again in “unseen” forces. Or perhaps we were abused or neglected as children, and so we have built a thick wall of protection around us.

The time is now to gently release those defenses.

Allow the wisdom, love, and healing from the Universe to pour into your crown chakra—the place in your body where you can most palpably feel your connection to All.

Recommendation: This week, make some space in your life for some meditations each day. They need not be long: in fact, five minutes a day will be wonderful. Take five minutes in the morning or in the evening, and visualize that there is light pouring into the top of your head (crown chakra). You may begin to feel tingles or warmth, which is part of the awakening process. Feel these sensations and rest easy, knowing that you are receiving exactly what you need at this time.


 

My dear friends,

May you be blessed: in your triumphs, in your struggles, in your fears, and in your moments of bliss.

May you breathe and smile, knowing that all experiences are exactly what you need.

Sending you so much love.

If you found this reading insightful, I’d really appreciate it if you share it with your friends! Thanks so much!

Abundant Love & Blessings,

Anya ♥

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I spy red! Autumn is coming!

Tarot for the Soul ~ week of September 4-10, 2017

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Welcome to your weekly Tarot for the Soul reading!

If you have been guided to this reading, then you are in the right place, my friend. This reading is meant for you.

As always, I have drawn two cards from my Osho Zen Tarot deck.

The first card represents the gifts that will be showered upon you this week by the Universe. We always have gifts being delivered to us—and spiritual mastery lies in slowing down enough to be able to cultivate gratitude. Our soul longs to say “thank you”… and, so, by taking this moment to give thanks, we generate even more positive energy so that more and more gifts may manifest in the future!

The second card represents your areas for growth this week. Remember: there is no life without challenge…no light without dark, no yin without yang. Life in human form is a mixed bag of circumstances and lessons. It is in our highest wisdom to recognize and embrace all aspects, even the ones that are painful. Our soul needs challenges in order to grow. So, stand and face these growth opportunities with an open, courageous, loving heart.


 

  ~ YOUR READING ~

 

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GIFTS:

I love this card—and I love you!photo_rainbows 10

I’m so thrilled to draw this card for you this week!

We are the World (10 of Rainbows) reveals feelings of joy, exuberance, and achievement. Feelings of prevailing peace and rightness.

All is good in the world.

This card is a celebration. It is a reflection of the fact that a sense of peace and fulfillment are currently radiating throughout your life. Yes, there may be certain goals that you are working towards, and certain things that have not yet come to fruition. However, this card indicates that you have indeed reached a major milestone in your journey.

The various colors of the people in this card represent the spectrum of human emotions that you have felt throughout your life. And wow—there have been so many! So many shades of happiness, peace, frustration, depression, worry, faith, hope, fear, sadness, confusion, bliss, and so much more.

Now, all the parts of you come together, holding hands, singing songs of gratitude.

Truly, this week your gift is a recognition of how you have worked so hard to embrace all the parts of you: the beautiful, the strange, and even the parts of you that you or society have labelled as “ugly.”

You have made such amazing strides!

This week, take time to notice how much self-love you are capable of cultivating now, in this present time in your life. Notice how you are less divided and less judgmental of yourself for feeling the various feelings you feel.

Being human is an extraordinary gift of feeling! We are not meant to be robots. On our spiritual journey, the dissolution of the ego is not about becoming neutral all the time. Rather, being a human being is about dancing and playing and adventuring into the feelings that we came here to experience. Good ones, bad ones, happy ones, and all the ones in between. (In truth, there are no “bad” ones, but that’s a subject for another time…)

You chose to come into this lifetime. You made the choice, because you knew that being human would be a wonderful. You also knew that, at times, it would feel like a crazy roller coaster. And yet you chose to come anyway. You wanted this.

This week, take the time to say some words of thanks to yourself, for you have reached a pivotal moment of fulfillment and accomplishment. Spirit wants you to know this.

 

GROWTH:

I truly love this week, because I’ve drawn two of my favorite cards.photo_1 Major Arcana

In the Existence Card (I of Major Arcana), a naked figure sits atop a lily pad, apparently enraptured by the scene that plays out before her. In the sky: a shooting star and luminous galaxies spin and swirl.

This card is about the transitionary time period between being at One with the Universe before birth and the moment directly after birth.

This card reminds me of a newborn baby, when they gaze up at lights and giggle and smile at seemingly everything. It is a feeling of innocence and wonder. Awe.

Your growth for this week is to cultivate this feeling further.

Here’s an exercise to try: For one entire day, try to imagine that you are an alien and you have just been deposited from your ship onto planet Earth. You look around you in amazement: There are beings walking around, speaking a language you don’t know, and there are colors and shapes and objects which are totally new to your eyes. So, you simply observe. You simply take it all in, with each breath.

This is the mindset that Spirit is encouraging you to cultivate this week. Look at the world as a newborn does. See the world as new, as shining, as the miraculous wonderment that it truly is.

So often in our daily lives, we begin to get a feeling of boredom. We feel like we’ve seen it all and there’s nothing new under the sun. And, yet…if we make the intentional choice to cultivate a sense of wonder about our existence, then we can recapture that feeling we had when we were young…that timeless, floating feeling, where we can taste the magic in every star, hear the mystery in every word.

Blessed be, my friends.


 

As always, my friends, if you’d like a private reading with me, please get in touch.

Thank you so much for being the miraculous being that you are, and thank you for providing me the space in which to share my work. I love this work.

Have an awesome week!

Love,

Anya

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Sweaty Hands and Self-Love: A Story of Healing

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At every stage of life, there is always learning and growth to be had.

Regardless of your particular role in society, a major step in the awakening process is to openly share and talk about your struggles with others. Even if you are a healer or a teacher or a guide to others (as I am), it is imperative that you, from time to time, share about your current challenges.

Yes, it may be scary to talk about our struggles (holy hell, I know that the story I’m about to share is super scary for me to admit!), but this kind of vulnerable sharing is what brings our shame and negative feelings out of the darkness and into the light of consciousness. By sharing openly, we heal. We transform.

By my sharing with you today about a current challenge of mine, I hope you will be inspired to share with a loved one what you are actively engaged in transforming.

MY SWEATING “PROBLEM”

When the temperature rises above 75 degrees (roughly), my hands and feet begin to sweat.

This happens because my endocrine system is imbalanced.

I am working on healing it.

Some days are worse than others. On some days, it’s simply a light dampness; on other days, the sweating is so intense that I am literally unable to type on my laptop because I fear that such a steady flow of liquid will break the machine.

For all of my life, this issue has plagued me. Not only is it often physically uncomfortable (for example, it’s difficult to do yoga sometimes, because my hands and feet are sliding all around the mat), but it is socially uncomfortable as well.

If the weather is warm that day, after a class or a workshop, when one of my students approaches me and holds out their hand for a handshake, I sometimes inwardly grimace.

Or, if I’m doing a Reiki healing session with a client, when it is time for me to touch a part of their body that is unclothed (face, neck, arms or legs), I sometimes worry that the sweat rolling off my fingertips is a distraction or an irritation for them.

Or, if I’m dating someone new…there is always this awkward moment where they reach out to hold my hand, and I want to run in the opposite direction.

Over the years, I have equated my sweaty hands with being a total weirdo. With being a loser, or a freak.

I so often feel shame when my hands come into contact with another person. (Which is surely ironic—considering the fact that I work as a hands-on healer!)

Many times, when I’ve shaken hands with someone, and they’ve literally gotten their hand soaked (it’s quite incredible, really), I’ve seen the look of mild irritation or confusion on their face, as they then wipe their hand on their pants, unsure about what they’ve just encountered. I assume they’re thinking something like, “What the hell was that?” When I see that look on their face, my heart absolutely breaks. I feel like a failure as a human being. A freak. A weirdo.

 

QUESTIONS AND REALIZATIONS

For years and years—basically, my whole life—I have actively hated and despised this aspect of my physical body. And though I deeply adore warm weather, I sometimes find myself dreading the spring months because of the seemingly inevitable social awkwardness it can bring.

But…lately…I’ve been asking myself some deep questions.

Why am I so ashamed? Why do I assume others will have negative feelings about the wetness of my hands? Why do I worry and care about what others think? What does this worry reflect about my own capacity for acceptance and self-love? And since I judge myself in this way, in what ways do I still judge others for not being “perfect”?

In so many ways, I have dropped concern for social norms and done my own thing. I’m a rebel. I am an independent, free-spirit. I don’t follow fashion norms. I wear non-matching clothes without a second thought. I don’t shave my legs; I don’t conform to gender norms. And I’ve broken just about every sexuality and relationship norm there is. In my rather conservative, frozen-in-time tiny town, I hug trees, sing, and openly perform sacred rituals in public spaces where such things are seen by the majority as outlandish, if not outright insane.

In so many aspects of my life, I do not give a crap what others think about me.

So why, in this one aspect, do I still worry about judgment and criticism from others?

After much recent reflection, I realize that the basis of my worry has to do with the fact that I’ve been stressed about presenting myself in a certain way, since my work highly depends on the impressions others have of me in order to seek my services. Basically, I’ve wanted to show myself as “perfect,” so others will be inspired to learn from me.

However, this attempt to be seen as perfect has created an impossible situation, where I am, time and time again, judging myself as less than perfect. It has set up a no-win scenario, where I am feeling like I have to hide behind a mask, rather than present my true self to others, warts and all.

Ultimately, what I realized is: Lately, my sweaty hands are prompting me to be more honest with others. I want to take all the masks off.

My sweaty hands are also helping me to realize how much more I need to love myself, unconditionally.

Do I have the courage to love myself, every single bit of me, no matter what?

Do I have the courage to claim my experience, and say to the Universe: “I love myself through my hands. I love myself through my feet. I love myself, whether sweaty or dry. I love myself, no matter what.”

And, do I have the courage to decree that I am the creator of my own experience?

 

A NEW CHAPTER

I realize that I do not know when the full physical healing of my endocrine system will happen. I know that the core of the imbalance is from years of undiagnosed PTSD.

And even though I now consider myself healed from PTSD—meaning that I have successfully rewired my brain into healthier patterns so that I no longer feel victimized by my past and meaning that I no longer require that label to make progress on my awakening journey—the reality is that my endocrine system, my physical body, is still catching up.

For years I have faithfully practiced healthy eating, daily meditation, and Reiki self-healing. And the situation still persists.

I’ve been so angry with the Universe. Why haven’t I been healed yet, when I’ve been so diligent to follow the path of healing?

And this anger…this anger is now asking to be transmuted, transformed, into patience, peace, acceptance, and self-love. I need to be with myself, just as I am, unconditionally, regardless of whether the issue is ever cured in this lifetime.

I have to be okay with the possibility that my hands and feet might always sweat more than I’d like.

That’s a hard lesson to learn, but I am ready.

The time is now for a new chapter. Yesterday, I attended a social function. New friends everywhere, wanting to shake my hand, wanting to be close. And so yesterday I began to practice something new. I began to shake hands with people, and as I did so, I silently repeated the mantra: “I love myself through my hands, I love myself through my hands, I love myself through my hands…”

As I met people by looking deeply into their eyes and seeing the lovely Spirit that lies within, I realized that what counts is not the dryness or the wetness of my hands. What counts is my ability to meet them where they are at, and to see the God within.

In order to do this, I need to meet myself in just that same way. If I am blocked because I cannot love this part of me, what are the chances that I can love them in the deepest way?

I am ready for this change. I am ready to create a new reality, where I love myself fully and totally, no matter what.

 

WHAT’S YOUR STORY?

My dear friends, thanks so much for listening to my story.

It’s felt scary, but also remarkably good to share with you.

And now, I invite you to share with us, in return. Let’s exchange energy and create a complete circle of healing.

What is it that you have disliked or even despised about yourself that you can now use as an opportunity to love yourself? What is it you’ve judged about yourself that you can choose to transform into an active practice and remembrance of love?

Please share with us in the comment section below.

And please know that as you share your story, you are inspiring others to do the same.

Your choice to be intentionally vulnerable is a powerful healing act, for yourself and others.

 

Thank you.

 

Story of a Miracle

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I have a story to tell you. It’s about a miracle.

It was spring, six years ago. I’d been receiving Reiki treatments from a beautiful being named Barb, a woman who would later become my teacher.

The treatments were incredible. I simply couldn’t get enough. I was booking in at least one a week. Something deep inside told me that this, this beautiful Reiki, would be the way out—the way I would transform from chronic illness into everlasting peace and joy. I knew it was possible. I knew it. I knew.

Around this time, I’d been reading the book The Essence of Reiki by Dawn Mellowship and Andy Chrysostomou. I remember feeling a profound resonance with their words.

To my great surprise, when I visited Andy’s website, I found an offer for free Reiki sessions for anyone around the world. These “distant sessions” did not require physical touch nor even to be in the same room with the master.

At this point in my life, my highly-rational, overly-trained analytical brain (I was in a PhD program at the time) was just beginning to lose its stronghold. I was beginning to trust my emotions, intuition, and the whispers of heart, even if those whispers did not seem logical.

So I emailed him.

A few days later, Andy responded. He said he’d love to do a session with me, and yes indeed, the service was a gift, totally free. From just a few short sentences, I felt his deep sincerity and devotion to his practice. I felt I trusted him. Whether this “distance” method would actually work was unknown to me, and yet I was glad to be corresponding with him, with this beautiful Reiki Master halfway across the world from me, living in London.

We scheduled the treatment for an upcoming Tuesday. Andy didn’t specify the specific time he’d be sending the energy, he only said it would happen at some point during the day.

When Tuesday arrived, I was sick at home. Couch-bound. Blankets, Kleenex, juice. All in all, for that period in my life, it was a rather typical day.

I remember it was early afternoon. I remember I was making a series of phone calls. I had just hung up the phone with someone (my mother?), and was just about to press the keys to begin the next conversation.

Suddenly, I felt a hand on my back. I froze. I remember sharply inhaling. I remember looking at the clock. About 1pm.

I knew.

Instinctively, I put the phone down, and stretched out across the couch. I pulled the blankets up over my chest, and simply focused on my breathing, as I stared at the white ceiling.

I felt things re-arranging inside of me. There was a kind of swishing sensation, as if gentle feathers were sweeping away dirt and debris. A few tears came. I felt my organs relax, my skin relax, everything about my whole being relax. I felt his hands, his beautiful hands, all the way from London. And I felt warmth.

I felt like I was being wrapped in a cocoon of love.

Every now and then my mind would try to jump in and try to protest about how “crazy” this was. Yet, I was able to quickly release the thoughts and return again to simply focusing on the sensations.

The session continued for about twenty or thirty minutes. I could feel the precise moment when Andy was finished. There was this palpable feeling of departure, as if someone was leaving the room.

I remember rising from the couch, wide-eyed, and walking into the bathroom. I remember looking in the mirror at my own shocked face. How was it that I had just felt the healing hands of a man in London? How was it that such love flowed through me now? How was it that this was the world in which I now lived?

Later that evening, I received an email from Andy. He mentioned the specific time he’d done the session (yes, 1pm, of course!), and he relayed to me various intuitive impressions he’d felt about my life, my illness, and about the ways I could achieve full and lasting health.

The gratitude I felt for Andy then and the gratitude I still feel today, as I write this story, is the kind of gratitude that the recipient of a miracle feels for the person who gave the miracle.

Since then, I’ve been thinking about the concept of a miracle. We’ve all heard of miracles…but what exactly is a miracle? Since my time with Andy, and since becoming a Reiki Master myself and working with so many beautiful beings, I have felt into this question.

What I have discovered is that miracles are real.

Miracles bend time and space. A miracle is a moment where the giver of the miracle relaxes into full trust in the Universe, and allows the miracle to flow through them, fully knowing that whatever happens in that moment is for the highest good of all involved.

A miracle may or may not involve the instantaneous curing of an illness, but it always always involves a moment of magic, a moment outside of the limits of the human mind, where some truth is revealed or we begin to taste the infinite possibilities of the Universe.

And, yes, miracles often involve profound moments of physical healing.

I would not be here on this planet now if it were not for Reiki.

On that fateful day in spring, six years ago, a beautiful being named Andy Chrysostomou made a miracle for me. It happened; it was real; it will forever be.

And that gratitude…the gratitude that I felt and feel for Andy, I now have the joy of seeing that gratitude in the faces of those who come to me. When my clients lay on the table before me, I lift my hands in joyful gratitude, simply dissolving my ego and allowing myself to be a clear channel of love, allowing the Universe to shape miracles through my hands.

And, after the session, when I see added light in their eyes, I know it is the light of their own love. I know that what they feel and see in me is simply their own magic.

The real magic is that the power lies inside of us. Every single one of us.

I have no special gifts or powers, and neither did Andy. All we did and do is simply trust in the Universe, and surrender to the infinite powers greater than each of us. All we did and do is yes.

This is something incredibly easy to talk about, but it takes a special kind of courage to enact.

Are you ready? Are you ready to let go of everything you’ve been told, and trust?

It doesn’t matter whether you practice Reiki or some other modality. The main point is that you surrender your small self, the ego mind, the logical rational brain, and you say:

Yes, I am ready for a miracle. I am worthy of love, and I am ready for the magic of the new. Let a miracle pour forth unto me this day. I am ready.